.::. MuAh LiFe.::.

2009-08-28T03:43:00.000-07:00

Today was a queer queer day, i just thot it'd be nice to share =)

In all aspects, today was really screwed up, especially after school >.< Went to UHWC (or isit UWHC? wadeva) to get the hepB jab.. [i still dislike needles] Then tried to act smart and went in search of the 963 busstop (WHICH IVE BEEN TO BEFORE BTW) frm uhc.. and guess what? I got lost... walked to the end of the stretch and realized i shd have turned right earlier on.. but heck.. faced with the bushes and drains, i decided to go back and take 95 instead.

After waiting for a pretty long time, i made it to buona vista and blahblah.. AND WTH? My parents were both in malaysia, my brother with the car in school, and i HAD TO WALK THE DAMN SLOPE home.. [those whove been to my hse wld know.. its seriously wtf]

So all in all, it looks like a wth way to end the day.

But i ended up pretty happy when im home.. somehow.. i was really quite pissed off at losing my way and having to walk.. but there were little in betweens that made me feel that it isnt all that bad..

Saw louis joel jonhan starting training for soccer as i was walking that long damn stretch.. i guess it must look quite funny for them lah (like why wld anyone walk here?) but it was a "pleasant surprise" on my part.. lol... dunno y, just felt happier seeing them than waiting for my turn to be jabbed with a needle =)

On 95, i saw my dear florence!!! haha.. we didnt get on the same stop, so it must have been a stroke of pure luck and timing that we could meet.. damn cool!!! Seeing her really made me feel so much better.. (speech therapy.. i havent spoken properly for a while) Loves her.. =D

Walking the slope up accomplished my activity plan for the week (walked more than i ever would have..) FIRST TIME IN A WEEK i sweat leh.. rofl..

So it wasnt all THAT bad isnt it?

lol...

2009-06-22T07:11:00.000-07:00

... there's not one single source out in the WORLD WIDE WEB that caters to JC 1 H1 mathematics... even the questions that "claim" to be H1 standard turn out to be H2 ones...

Like cant they empathize with pp teaching H1 math?? wth >.<

So i spent the last 20min of my life COMPILING a set of questions i THINK caters to the H1 level.. only koped 1 question from another website source (sm teachmejcmath.com thingy)

So if any other fellow H1 math tutors out there need help, can drop me an email.. if u dun have my email, drop a tag.

But i may not see it lahx.. haha

Anyway, I was 3cm close to getting into a car accident on the AYE... coming back from tiongbahru and just passed NUS..

A LORRY driven by 3prcmales in red shirt was speeding into the aye, with NO INKLING of wanting to slow down or whatsoever (like wth?)

It SQUEEZED its way into my way, thinking i'll automatically slow down.. but NO?! like.. since when do I slow down? [hahaha... watches my instructor scowl in anger]

So because of my inability to keep the car straight in my own lane with the pressure of that horrible lorry, i got into the way of another driver on lane 2... and that totally pissed that man off [who was driving a 15year old black toyota, was wearing a random shirt and looks to be in his 50s]... THAT oldman actually got so pissed he drove up to my side and kept horning at me..

Well... i ought to have done that to the lorry... like drive to its side and keep blasting my gay horn till the 3prcs simultaneously raise their middle finger?

Like what does that old man expect me to do?
And like har? MY FAULT AH?

so..
a) i shd have slowed down?
b) i shd have rammed the prc lorry?

hmm.. i shd have chosen b... then at least dun have to get horned at.. like wtf?

siao.. damn irritated...

so ya, the roads are like the tiger's mouth.. please drive safely and maintain within the speed limit.

And steer clear of all taxi drivers, lorry drivers who are prcs (those indian drivers are always very very nice... let me change lane when i need to =D), and old man drivers who think they own the road just cause they have driven on it for more than 30 years..

>.<

And of course, stay far far away from people like me... with a triangle at the back of the car and yet still speeds till the brink of the speed limit (and overtake other vehicles who are OBVIOUSLY so much safer)

Dang.. i think im damn dangerous lah.. :'(

2009-05-25T21:03:00.000-07:00

Er-hem... [only reason why i use this pic is cos... its near lunchtime and im hungry :D]

I've been desperately trying to revive the japanese language learning thingy... and i so damn regret sleeping through all the lessons at moelc.. gahh

only time ive stayed away was during movie screening... wth...

super sorry to the various senseis who have tried their very best with an insolent child like me >.<

So to all juniors out there who are BLESSED to study in that bishan place (which takes almost 45min to reach frm my hse!)... TRY TO STAY AWAKE even tho u dun understand a word =)

hehh.. 2mths till sch starts... hv the whole of june and july to spare.. HMM... will spend my efforts on my tuition kids ba... and prob try to pick up jap (wahahaha... till now, to no avail..)

The dreams of going overseas are kinda dying off... have been thinking of going abroad for a trip since like.. last yr? rofl... practical constraints plus innate inertia jus killed that dream lahx ;)

Guess there's at least a dozen people out there like me =)

Life is BORING now... ... grr.......

2009-05-02T07:07:00.000-07:00

Was packing my room and chanced upon the bag of letters pp wrote over the past years.. there's the angel mortal letters, camp farewell letters, overseas immersion qingshus, bdae wishings, christmas greetings, xinnian cards, random jiayou messages (mainly frm audrey) ... i realized im super messy lah.. and i realized i havent been in touch with quite a few pp lately..

one of the letters went: 写了这么多，我们以后见面的时候还是一样，好像什么都没有写过。认真是虚伪。sth liddat.

Haha.. i agree =)

Sometimes it is only through written words that people can express sth that may sound damn mushy.. St the things we write can cause us to tear when we read them out loud. For me, i'll just sob if i say touchy stuff.. so i write letters alot.. haha..

I shall start writing letters.. There are some people that are always remembered.. And they deserve to KNOW that they are being remembered.

A little card can make another person feel a hell lot better.

And since i have the time now.. why not? :)

I want to teach tuition... But then again.. I don't always get what i want.
Another letter is right: Put others before self, only then can you earn respect from others.

Thinking about her, it all seems a little unfortunate. Guess it all boils down to fate.

May we all get what we want in life.

P.S. I'm free for tuitioning now ;) drop me an email if interested =)

2009-04-07T05:51:00.001-07:00

I really really really really hope for world peace right now.... but that will put police officers, military men, psychiatrists ETC out of job... and make the world a damn boring place.

Sometimes, I don't wish to go through the horrible feelings: jealousy (of whatever), anger (at latecomers, stupid people), boredom (of doing mundane work), frustration (towards people who do not prioritize), sadness (of missing someone, or of seeing people going through sad things in life)...

But when i think of it in another warped manner, these are the things that make up life.

If life is only: peace (LOL), happiness (that's damn tiring), excitement (exhausted).. blahblah.. HMM... That's kinda screwed..

And the fact is,life can NEVER be like this.. WHY?

Because of the word "satisfaction"

People never get satisfied with what they have. If they are alwaysfeeling happy, they will think that is totally NORMAL, and find something to make themselves happier.

The endless search to satisfy an ENDLESS desire for ???

Nobody knows what we are ultimately looking for.

Take ME for example:
I have a loving family, a beautiful house, a carefree life.

But i'm perpetually frustrated and angry. Over what?
1) My biscuits were mysteriously eaten up --> FRUSTRATED
2) I was pushed into the MRT by a hoard of people --> PISSED
3) I had to be constantly given the questioning look whenever i come out of the room --> FLUSTERED
4) I want to get into medical school --> F***** UP WORRIED
5) I miss him --> SORROW
6) I HAVE AN ESSAY TEST TMR --> LOST
7) I have to wake up early tomorrow --> LACK OF SLEEP = FRUSTRATED
8)9)10)... BLAH BLAH BLAH

Minute? Mundane?

The fact is, these mundane little minute things make a hell lot of impact on a person like me.. the same impact it has on the people in Africa who worry over the lack of food/shelter/water/weapons to hunt..

I don't think there are problems in the world that are MINUTE..
Because we all have different scales.. that this scale is unique to measure our OWN lives.

I will continue to worry over the stupid essay test tmr... worry over getting into med school.. worry over people's scowling look..

The same way an ant worries about the anthill collapsing..

Sigh.. i have NO idea what i'm trying to drive across in this entire rant of stuff.. it didn't make much of a sense to me.. but i just suddenly had a passionate urge to declare my stand in this issue that nobody is debating about..

Maybe all i'm trying to do is convince myself that.. well... erm...

Heck.

Goodluck to all for essay tomorrow.

2009-04-01T05:48:00.000-07:00

long time no blog... hardly have time (nor energy) to write abt my mundane life now.. Honestly, there was nothing to write about. And i'm happy with my privacy.

But today... it's totally worth writing about.. today has been the most... exciting day since i left school.. really... THE MOST exciting day..
And it'll be good to let other innocent lambs get their guards up.. At least i'd have done one right thing in the course of this thing..

but i honestly dont want to go through it again.. it's bad enough having to feel stupid once.

I have half a mind to not write about this, but heck.. whatever.

For those whose turn is coming up soon, best of luck. It's not going to be easy.. and definitely very anal.. but well.. just.. good luck.

For those who, like me, got the best april fool's joke in the century, dun despair. You're not the only one in the world who felt like a loser.. If you don't, good for you. If you do, well, here's another loser to join your gang. Be glad.

Now i know why there are horror stories... they are damn freaking true.

And you only know the true horror when you go through it.

So i'm urging you, if you missed your chance this year, dun be disheartened. You can always sign up for the haunted mansion next year. I guarantee u 25min of 160bpm....

Damnit...

And i was so looking forward to getting in.

Now i'll just have to keep an eye out for other options.

2009-01-18T06:06:00.000-08:00

:)

Life at rh isnt too bad... at least im not getting abused or sth... im plain lucky to get into the right place with the right pp~ Anw, dun rly wanna tok abt work (since ive gotta go back to it in less than 11hrs)... but honestly dun feel like talking abt anything in particular lah...

haha... life is boring without the boys... like where the hell has everyone gone? Getting locked in tekong is just sad.. been more than a week since they went in le... poor things... hope they come out fine... just botak and more tanned and more fit la... eat some bakguah and go back in again to be roasted and whipped... ZZ... jiayou boys~

:)

eating chocolates lately... the serotonin is making me high... but effect v short.. and has bad side effects (like weight gain)... plus the all-bothering pms (which makes women very very bad people who yell at other peoplefor no reason or emo in a corner or say nasty things to people they care cos they are feeling like crap)... gahh..hasnt been a good condition to be left alone...

not that im thinking.. im not! That's the problem.. its just irrational, illogical sadness im feeling.... like a permanent temptation to cry and having pimples...
Maybe im menopausal.. but come'on man! im 18!!!

Bleargh.. at least i ddun bully too many people.. can seem to contain when im being PR-ish... LOL... just those im comfy with i end up being nasty.. how ironic..

My poor parents... and poor people that matter...

I miss you.... like.. really really really miss you...
Gah... i go sleep le... da jia work hard!

2008-12-30T20:30:00.000-08:00

hmm... almost 11hrs30min left to 2008...

2009!!!! =) Super looking forward..

AS in.. even if i dont it'll still come.. so.... YEAH! LOOKS FORWARD!!!

Tho i honestly like where i am now and what im doing (i mean... when i do have something to do other than rot at home) it's a good thing to move on lah =) It does make sense to me to look forward to what's coming...

And if im lucky enough to get into where i want to get into... 2009 will be a great year and a great start ^-^

If im not THAT lucky, then 2009 shall just be spent doing things i LIKE and finding out where to go next ^-^

NS is honestly a superduper.... gahh thing.. as in.. ALL the guys (99% at least) are going to be enlisted... or already in their 2nd year in army.. or signed on and is going to stay in the army.. or are talking about army....

Hmm.... if 50% of the population are singapore males (which is overestimating anyway.. too many non singaporeans) and they all went through army and now doing reservice......... we're going to be a whole country of soldiers!

K la.. not that bad...

two major dates where pp i know are going in.. 7th and 9th.. primarily lah... but im starting to get the dates mixed up.. HMM... like i recorded my basic driving theory on the 9th when its on the 12th... i hate numbers :'(

Haha.. customary new year resolutions:

1. Stay on the job for 6mths even if its a boring admin thingy... and im making sure the doctor likes me so he/she will show me how to operate on women ^-^

2. Be nice to my family and friends =)

3. Ensure my omnia survives to see the next new year... (THAT'S A DARN BIG CHALLENGE)

4. Take lots of photos of my life... i need MORE PHOTOS~~~

5. Travel... i want to go at least 3 countries next year.... (that's once every 4 months.. HMM)

6. Learn to bake edible cakes... Kk.. i've already started on my attempts.. but they're still not VERY edible yet... i'll learn to bake it properly in time to come.. one year.. come on cakes of 2009!!!

7. Help at huangcheng... when i can =) maybe i go pop by at night lah.. my working time 8.30 to 6 neh.. must understand =) Sms me when u need me.. i'll drop by =)

8. Watch ER and Grey's Anatomy when i have time.. (it was my post a-level resolution :'( )

9. Pick up a new skill.. language/sports/other skills such as sewing, musical instruments, blah blah blah

10. Reformat my computer.. or get a new one if possible... this one is too HEAVY and.. GAHH..

Okay.. that's all for now.. but i think i'll cough up new things along the year =)

Its now 1pm... 11 hours to 2009... I'm looking forward to fireworks =)

First new year.. For the past year, you've gradually become part of my life..

You've been ever so patient, and understanding.. and always know when to let me have my way (and when to stand ur ground).. I still think i'll get lost without you.. and end up finding things to do to fill time with you away.. I'll really be indecisive.. and still thinking of you at every turn.. I'll still be childish and complain at everything.. I'll be silly and accuse you of things you never did.. I may remain this petty for the rest of my life... I'll be as imperfect as i am now, even when i grow up and grow old...

Think of me when you're away k? Think only of the good parts of me.. the side of me who gets moody knowing i cant chat with you everyday.. the me who worries if you'll get snatched away by a pontianak.. the me who misses you.. the me who will take care of you when you come home..

Think of me as the person who will live her life still while waiting for you... I'll still have my friends and i'll tell you of them so you know them too.. I'll learn new languages to spout at you.. I'll make nice food to feed u.. Time stands still in NS, but time moves on for me.. im afraid of that.. but we'll deal with it =)

One thing wont change though... i'm still waiting for the day 10,20,30,... 70 years down the road.. =)

Here's a video to welcome your new year =) I LOVE this video~~ Like reality TV liddat ^-^

Cherios~~ ^-^ And Happy 2009!

2008-12-30T05:26:00.000-08:00

I'm a functioning member of the workforce

AND I GET CPF!!!

Haha...

Okay.. im a loser lah.. nvr work before so now excited over lame stuff like this.. but honestly...

I'm a working adult too le~~~ =) =)

Thot e white shirt black bottoms dress code was a little strange.. how to get 6 white shirts??
But nvm.. i dun care...

Starts work on Friday =) Then going for HC chalet (GOGOGO everyone!!!!!) Chalet ends on Sunday.. then monday work again!! haha..

Guess i've been too bored la.. now got sth to do also super happy.. gah.. [ANYTHING BEATS WRITING STUPID ESSAYS]

Oh yeah.... Gah... not my fault im not uploading pictures onto facebook.. my com has grown so old facebook doesnt like it anymore...

Nvm.. haha.. the photos are all random anyway =P

Yay Yay Yay!

Just realized BMT is 10 weeks.. which is like 1 school term? Which isnt VERY long if u really think about it.....
HMM...
Well.. pp in SSS wont find any difference in regime ba...
But hc boys... HMMMM... *imagines jw... *

Okay.. maybe it is quite long.. if its running and pumping and fieldcamping and rolling in the mud all day..

well... heck.. you guys are supposed to PROTECT us anyway =) I'm sure you'll all do a great job ^-^ [while i enjoy life IN THE WORKFORCE]

lala~~~

I'm crazy from reading my essay... its retarded and incoherent..

So i'm not going to send first... i'm going to assume tmr's the deadline.. and start panicking then..

AS for now... i'm just going to hug eeyore and go nuah somewhere..

BTW, wonder if ive said this before.. but my dad said it again yesterday:
eh? 你带育儿出门啊? (I was bringing eeyore home)

Like.. eeyore has a chinese name.. nice~ =D

Im going out to steal my parent's heineken.. cya =)

2008-12-28T22:15:00.000-08:00

GAH!! From 16 shortshort longlong to 2 longlonglonglong... i guess i DID progress lah...

And heck.. i've not been blogging for so long.. deserves a break.

Just came back from cruise (LIBRA) and spent the last 2 days cui-ing with the darn essays... zzzz... damn nuah... had to keep writing about myself... which i HONESTLY know nuts about..

>.< Cruise was IMBA... it's a 4 day 3 night thing... got christmas eve party, got christmas day party, got post christmas chocolate buffet... siao... ate like the whole ship.. now dun dare to weigh myself.. scared spoil the scale... lol... there's like 5 meal slots... which covers from 6.30am to 11pm.. and a 24hr buffet at the corner of the ship.... sane...

3 little pigs...

HEHE.. FAMILY PHOTO!!! =D
P.S. The one in the centre's my sis =D=D she got her hair rebonded!!!! ^-^

then of course, there's the CASINO!~~~~ hahaha... i was OBVIOUSLY checked (cause i look so young ;D) but i proudly flashed my STAR CRUISE CARD (OMG.. i have a STAR CRUISE CARD!!!!) and the person stunned.. hahaha... [basically, the starcruise card is to collect points when you gamble so you can redeem like a room next time?] yeah anyway.. i went to gamble hours away.. now got 7.59 points (after 4 days!) Apparently.. 10 points can get a room so yeah~~ I'm so gonna go back and gamble summmore :P:P:P

AND guess what? I'm a pro at carribean poker ;) stun the dealer every time :P and yepyep~ lady luck loves me so i won a few hundred bucks =D=D Bet the guard and the dealer both know me le :D

Got a chance to dress like a crazy person cos no one knows me on the ship~ So was like dress skirt long sleeve sweater stylo stylo shirt all day long~~ =D SO unfortunately, no beach hunks on board... the caucasians all have girlfriends (GAH) and the non caucasians.. i just think my brother is still the cutest lah.. so boh pian... im stuck with my bro =)
hehex.. and we cam-whored at every POTENTIAL moment.. which was.. EVERY MOMENT =D

In short.. it's a fun fun trip~ Shopped, ate, gamble, drank (LOTS)... blahblahblah~~~

Life rocks =) Just don't ask me to write essays >.<
But i'll finish it by tomorrow... then i'll leave the rest to fate =D
Tolong lah.. i put alot of effort de loh..... *sweet smiles*

I want to appreciate the people around me more... time is running out.. and a lifetime seems so short now... NONONO!!!

ZZZ... why can't RMG start later.. WHY?!?! :'(

RAWR...

Nvm.... I'll learn to be patient...
I'll try....

2008-12-04T06:39:00.000-08:00

=) seems like i have less time to blog after As than during As (or before As so to speak)

But well.. i'm having hell lots of fun :P

Prom tomorrow.. honestly not a very big deal since i didn't do much for it.. but it's going to be damn cool seeing people in suits and dresses...

and other school's prom all look quite fun too~

Okay la.. it's just a mass photo-taking act-sui session.. but heck.. i'm going to make the most fun out of it~

Have been walking all the time these days... growing blueblacks on the sole of my feet...
HAHA

Have fun tomorrow!!!!
CIAOX~

Each photo means a moment with you... and i'm going to need alot of moments to get me through the days without you...
Even thinking abt being apart now makes me super nuah... when that day really comes... ZZZ...
Gah..
I'm going to lose my way without you... be super late each time... and forever cannot decide on what i want to eat..
...
Fine.. shant chengqiang all the time le.. wants to let u protect me while you can..
Protect me... okay? =)
I love you... Always...

2008-11-22T18:07:00.000-08:00

A world full of colours.. Golden sunshine.. blue waters.. green trees.. shiny white smiles.. red cheeks..

What a nice nice world..

And RED is the color for beauty in many languages.

What colour is friendship?
I'd say it's a blend of baby pink with orange.. and... silver!
Or maybe it's green with red ornaments..
Maybe it's pinkish with glitters!
Or maybe... it's just plain white.. where everyone can make a mark of their own without being distorted by other colours!

=)

What colour is love?
Many would say it's red!
But i would say it's black!
Cause for one, black is my favourite colour.
And secondly, black is everywhere!
And thirdly... black can accomodate any colour without changing!

Isn't black a very nice colour?

=)=)=)

Go for the class outing people! =)

Ciaox~

2008-11-12T18:37:00.000-08:00

It's 10:37am on a thursday morning.. 13th nov.....

Wait.. 13th.. exams end on the 20th.. if my math hasn't left me completely yet.. that's 7 days right?

Hmm.. 7days..

7 days?!?!?!!!

THAT'S A DAMN WEEK!

wth..

2 more mcq papers.. one imba bio pp3.. and one even more imba csc pp2...

haven't decided if i wanna go for waseda gathering.. just wanna blend in with my couch an become a classic couch potato (=D)

Oh btw.. i change no le.. the 8200**** is currently non-existant.. so if im not replying (stares at audrey) then come ask me for the new number.. lol.. im not THAT dao.. :)

AH.. 1 more week.. 1 damn week.. 1 bloody week...

And im going to have a bonfire in my balcony to burn my books..
wait.. that's pollution..
okay.. i'm just going to sell it to the karangguni..

No wait.. im going to make this more constructive... HMM...

CSC NOTES FOR SALE!!!!!

*smiles* Price negotiable.. and YOU come move it YOURSELF!

Hmm.. and csc tuition at a negotiable rate~ [I can easily do the 格式 thing~~ and MORE ;)]

heh heh.. teacher's schedule got priority.. YOU fit MINE darlin~ ^-^

Im going to get a holiday job.. and if i dun get the internship at RMG, i'm going to apply to be a social escort.. ^-^

one week. 1 week. yi ge xing qi. 一个星期。一周。satu (week in malay)....

and if some lunatic suddenly tells us there's one more paper after nxt thursday.. ANY paper... i'll boycott it.. and shred that unfortunate messenger..

rawr.. it's almost 11.. im going to go read bio..

don't we all love GMOs? Don't we? yeah? isnt' that the amazing purpose in life? So enriching? Fulfilling? Life changing?

Dang.

2008-11-08T03:51:00.000-08:00

一个长途赛跑，虽恐怖的应该就是中间地带吧。。一开始有精力可以冲刺，最后看到终点时可以有起死回生的冲劲。。途中。。仿佛在与心魔打仗。。强迫自己继续。。无奈。。

经过一天对于中国通识的亲密接触，我有了新的启发。

与此同时，我有个无法破解的难题：咱们这两年都在干啥？

半途而废。。
我现在在半途，而且也觉得很废。

看了一天的电视，心情非常愉快。
人生不过如此。不用太复杂，一切简单化。

我可以过得很快乐。

等待一切结束的那一刻。

耶？真是奇妙。。我将用中国通识结束这两年的旅途。
最后写的句号是"。"而不是 "."
最后的一场考试是与一起度过六个星期中国的人。。
什么都抵不过那群奇怪的BSP学生。。

命运还真是爱捉弄人。
不过能与一群朋友一起结束艰巨的旅程，感觉相当不错。

万幸。

朋友，加油。
无论好坏，起码尽力了。
不要留下更多的遗憾。
还有另外一半的途要废。
尽力吧。

2008-11-02T01:40:00.001-07:00

I've been through this before.

Sweaty palms, sleepless nights, and a perpetual fear for what will happen a moment later.

And things are about to get much worse as the seconds creep towards the fateful moment.. where the "you may begin" comes.. I'll face my greatest enemy, and there's no backing out.

Fingers trembling with fear, i open the test paper, and to my dismay...

That's usually when you wake up =)

Except that this time, i wont be waking up..

Sigh..

Living in a nightmare.. and guess what? I can't wake up!

Rawr..

when all else fails, sit back, relax, and hope..

That's the spirit girl.

Good luck everyone~

Ad hominem: To make an unjustified attack on the personal rather than the issue.
"Damn the person who created exams... exams are redundant"

So much for avoiding fallacies.

"Nothing worth knowing can be taught." Discuss.
Duh.

2008-10-26T21:33:00.000-07:00

I know im like so outdated, but i've just watched the amazing hsm2 ytd.. and i'm so going to speak like a bimbo today man~

HAHA..

that sharpay girl is imba at that... that... that erps.. high pitched "oh my god" voice.

haha.. i'm impressed.

Couldn't resist youtube's temptation.. and went to go find some songs to listen to.. then found this..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=15ugpxKRJhY

I swear i'm in love with Zac Efron.. ^-^

*loves*

Man.. he's cute.

OH MY GOD!! TROY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahahaa..

And this part wasn't in Channel5's version: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ir38tIOQdT0

It's so retarded i can't help laughing..

Poor troy..

Alright.. i'm going off..

Just gotta say i almost cried at "gotta go my own way"

And i know a levels is taking its toll on my mental health.. hahah~~

Cherios~

2008-10-24T20:25:00.000-07:00

Life.. I need a life...

NOOB LAH! This is seriously damn noob.

How random.

cantankerous.

*sulks*

I need to play. desperately.

bellingerent.

Needs to go shopping and get new clothes (tho i have no bloody need for it now..)

Estranged.

AHHHHHH!!!!!

Capricious.

*angst*

Marginalized.

Damn it.

intrepid.

Dang.. Life sucks.

I want to go to Hawaii... and watch coconut trees being battered by the wind, shores slapped by the relentless waves, and the sun scorching the people lying with their backs up and falling asleep.

Alternatively, there can be a CONFLAGARATION in schools and ministries to RAZE our papers (?)

Or we can simply resign ourselves to fate and... well.. resign ourselves to fate..

RAWR

dies off.. spent the 2 hours i am awake doing NOTHING NOTHING NOTHING

AHAHAHA

nuts....

I HATE THE WORLD!!! WOOHOO!!!

I miss being a kid. When 1+1=2.
Gorgor, benji-gorgor, nana, xiaowei, adrian, eugene, nicholas, bellebelle
lolx...

DANG. (gor looks happy after their latenight clubbing ytd... AHHH.. jealous)

AHHHHHHHHH

Bye.

2008-10-19T05:18:00.001-07:00

=)

Warning: Full of random statements.. Do NOT read if you're in a rush.. i mean it.

In the midst of all the mugging and extreme intimate interaction with our long-forgotten pile of notes, it is time for all of us to take a little breather, and doing something we all enjoy doing (and almost forgot how to do)

Such as watching Magician's Love for the upteenth time.
Such as spending an afternoon eating up a big bag of Calbee hot and spicy chips (which is meant for my gor but anyway...)
Such as reading a random chinese short story for a short 30 minutes.
And blogging (and retrying the password for the account cause you forgot already.. (paiseh))

Anyway, it is at this juncture in time when we should learn to... relax.
My sister has her o levels starting tomorrow (chemistry paper.. hell... tonight will be nightmarish for her)
And i have mine starting in 2 weeks time.
To be honest, we're both petrified. Hey.. i have my reasons.. she's just 4 years frm her psle.. mine's 6! Yeah... kinda worrying.
But still.. guess there's not much point in worrying that much isnt it? =)

^-^ There are little things in life that make a simple person like me simply very happy.
Take for example, that big bag of calbee..
Or an unexpected sms from a very important person.. :)
Or getting up in the morning with eeyore sitting on my face.
Or successfully chasing an irritating housefly out of my room with the morning papers.
Or finding a long lost piece of worksheet, that isnt very important, but completes my bio file finally...

And maybe there are little things in your life that can make you a notch happier too~ ^-^
Just look harder ^.^

Just these few days, while i was under a siege by the infamous flu bug, my delirious mind went into a strange mode. I remembered a few people whom i hold dear to, and who i haven't been making the effort to stay in contact with.. People whose names are crystal clear to me, even though we haven't spoken for years.. (and that's kinda impressive)

Gery added me on facebook the other day.. haven't had the courage/time to actually "write something on her wall" or pick up a chat.. was wondering how i was going to go about doing it.. wondering if she's still called Gery after so many years.. But at least im certain she remembers me (who would add someone she doesnt remember? :P) and im so super glad. Maybe someday after the darn a levels, i'll write her an email, or throw a sheep at her or something.. haha.. then maybe when she comes back we can go for a meal together.. with doris and gen (whom i, sadly, haven't been much in contact too...)

Im a failure as a friend... GAH. And a flu bug made me realize that.. (ZZZZ)

And now, as i reach the "crossroads of life" once again (just like in p6...) there are pp around me i dun want to lose.. (and i know i wont lose them lah :P) shall keep a mental note in mind... that even by throwing sheeps and cows and poking them with a virtual computer, i'm going to keep in touch..

lol.. suffering from flu may not be that useless afterall~
reignited some form of conscience in me.. haha.

through-train to jc prevented the loss of friends to a large extent.. and i never had to make the effort to well.. keep in touch.. but i will now~

just bear with me while i figure out how to super poke. :)

gah... chem mock tmr.. sane. i haven't been touching chem (all that darn gp's fault). heck. just zham.

Cya guys tmr~

And best of luck for studying~ JIAYOU~ =)

=)
Once upon a time, at a land far far away, there lived a girl with a donkey named eeyore.
...
They had different missions to accomplish (missions are the in-thing there)...
...
They went their seperate ways to complete their missions...
...
They eventually came home...
...
And they lived happily ever after~ ^-^
...

The flu bug told me to think less, rest more.
I thought too much.
And the flu bug punished me by making me ill for one more day.
So now, i don't think so much.
And learnt to feel a little more.
And the flu bug rewarded me by going into latent state.

flu bugs rock *heartx*

When a person's "i'll wait for you" on any random occassion means the world to you,
you know you're in for it.
When a person's "are you alright" brings about a skip in heartbeat,
you know you're either just darn sick, or you're a gonecase.
When a person's "=)" and "hello" makes you soft in your knees when you're in a midst of a housefly battle,
that person is important.

And when you've moved on to the stage where all this just brings a little smile to your face
and a little warmth in your heart,
don't suspect you're not in for it, or that the person is not important,
but that the person means more to you, than just any heart-throbbing dead-hot will smith eye candy.
The person is the one you want to see for the rest of your life.

That's why your mother rolls your eyes when your dad gets her flowers,
and later hangs it up in aprominent place in the room, and boasts abt it to her friends.

That's also why your dad looks disgruntled when he receives a sweet sms from your mom,
can't understand the english, asks you to decode it for him, realizing its a sweet sms, shys away,
pretends to not appreciate it, and goes into a room with a smile on the face that says "wow..."

^-^ Parents are interesting people.

2008-10-13T00:16:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday to our dear Yinghan and Zhiqin!! =)

Too long never move around.. ytd ji tired.. lolx..

photos and video on facebook le.. u guys go take a look bah.. other videos i upload some other time k..

Nice song.. think i post before:
下一个天亮

用起伏的背影挡住哭泣的心　　
有些故事不必说给每个人听　　
许多眼睛看的太浅太近　　
错过我没被看见那个自己　　　　

用简单的言语解开超载的心　　
有些情绪是该说给懂的人听　　
你的热泪比我激动怜惜　　
我发誓要更努力更有勇气　　　　

等下一个天亮　　
去上次牵手赏花那裏散步好吗　　
有些积雪会自己融化　　
你的肩膀是我豁达的天堂　　
等下一个天亮　　
把偷拍我看海的照片送我好吗　　
我喜欢我飞舞的头发　　
和飘著雨还是眺望的眼光　　　　

时间可以磨去我的棱角　　
有些坚持却永远磨不掉　　
请容许我小小的骄傲　　
因为有你这样的依靠

I'm starting to not understand alot of songs... think its lack of exposure.
Some songs are just too... hard to understand.

Jiayou for A levels people! It's a few more days only! JiayouJiayou!

Perfect?
Just want to be good enough for you.
Don't accept flaws.
Cease to deem them as flaws in the first place.

钻牛角尖 >.<

2008-10-10T19:31:00.000-07:00

=)

Congratulations to all hc pp on graduating (finally)

A little strange to still have classes after graduation... nevertheless, it was fun cam-whoring with classmates.. photos uploaded onto facebook le.. pls take some time to download them.. alot of kinky stuff so.. discretion hor..

=) nicenice.

And i think everyone looks ji chio in white shirt.. haha~~ ^-^

Whole graduation album looks like some bear advertisement... almost every photo (after we got the bear) has the bear in it.. sane...

jiemeis were really meng in photo taking...

tagging pp in photos is a tiring task.. RAWR

2008-10-01T02:54:00.000-07:00

Aww shux.. wanted to do a end of month review thingy ytd but fell asleep before remembering.. rofl.. well heck..

HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY everyone! And Hari Raya Puasa to all muslim fwens out there~ ^-^

Today is indeed a very joyous day to kick-start the new month. Worth commemorating~
Today marks the start of the one month race to A LEVELS~ (WOOHOO~~!!) That's assuming we spend the first few days of november in meditation and prayers...

Today marks the last day of relaxation babes~ no more sun-tanning at the beaches.. and cause of that, my whole family went out for a movie trip~~ Eagle's Eye is seriously a very cool movie.. that Jerry person looks.. acceptable.. but i guess look isnt everything.. :P I fell in love with SAM though.. he looks amazing with his trumpet (tho a little too much freckles)

And the story is good~~~ that computer is imba.. hahax~

Finally cleared the 4 books i borrowed on the last library trip.. they're.. fine.. guess too long nvr go library le choose books also rusty liao~ They're a good mix of all genres.. hehex.. "Never Walk Alone" is a good book.. tho got sexual references so if you're not in the mood for the crappy descriptive stories involving physical attraction between members of the opposite sex, then forget it~

Woke up at 9am this morning.. astounding.. on a non-school day summore.. hahax.. moped around a little and thought about life.. spent 1 whole hour reading the newspapers about what sub-prime crisis.. what liquidity in assets.. something about equity.. china's tainted milk scandal similar to us swill milk scandal.. and thinking about life.. and hence becoming a more useful person.

After the movie, at 6pm right NOW im sitting in front of the computer and thinking through what i've done (right) for the past months in jc life..

Well.. i cant say i've not done anything wrong.. ive messed up things more than a few times.. pissed a few people off more often than i'd rather.. swallowed my distaste at something when i so desperately wanted to shout it in the person's face (and regretting it straight after)... screwing up the damn h3 paper in may and regretting it now that its october (and dun tell me u dun think i screwed.. cos i did the damn paper, and i so well know what i wrote for the question asking what the hell is southern blot.. cos at that point in time.. southern blot meant TRANSCRIPTION FACTORS to me.. WTF)...

I've screwed up, certain things.. did well for others.. overall.. as i read somewhere (ive been a conscientious reader these days) it's not a question of building the perfect system.. its finding a solution where the benefits outweigh the repercussions.. (OWTTE)

So i guess i had more benefits than repercussions. In my own way..

i dun tink im a better person after i left nanyang.. in fact i dun think ive changed much.. i still throw my tantrums.. and get angry at things for no particular reasons.. i still am detached to most other stuff and give verbal advice than real action.. i still over-commit and under-perform.. i still cant live up to many promises.. and i still end up screwing up things that matter to me.. i still am competitive.. (and i still have a style of writing that is un-understandable to members of the education force)

Guess i still never quitted the habit of evading problems.. and questions i dun like to answer.. but that's not the way to living. How easy it is to advice someone to "face the problem, and tackle it like a man" and not be able to do a single bit of it..

Random Angst-ing..

hahax~~ sane.. pls start the month in this mood.. tsktsk~

Haha.. i bet im pmsing (WOW.. convenient reason)... cos there are things i usually can accept de then today i got very pissed jus listening about it.. hormonal surge.. feminine protectionism (WADEVA) hahax~~

Should have blogged when i was in a better mood.. now im incoherent.. like all my usual written work.. damn..

The past month has been tiring... with Prelims and all... felt like ive aged (like a tree with one more layer of rings in the bark) but not maturified (lol)...

Im losing my voice.. and if there's one part of me i never want to lose.. its my voice.. WHAT'S LIFE WITHOUT TALKING!!!!! Hahaha... I'll be sadded.. not because i like my voice.. partly because i talk too much so im used to hearing my own voice.. and partly because i dun like sms-ing or writing or sign languaging or mouthing words.. so i guess im just left with talking.. unless someone creates some brainwave communication thingy.. otherwise, i prefer talking alot, thank you very much..

So whoever up there controlling sickness, can i like have foot problems instead? i dun walk alot anyway so it doesnt matter... but spare my throat~ *angelic smile*

WOOHOO!!! ONE MORE MONTH of self-torture... and it'll be over.. my 2nd PSLE.. hahax~ Lots of pp with me in this 2nd PSLE crap so im glad.. very very glad im not in this shit alone..

SCREW the system.. but BLESS us all! GO ON PEEPX! And own the damn bloody system upside down! =)=)=)

GANBATTE!!!!! (motivated look... imagines communist songs playing the background)

^.^

Language without words...
Language only I know...
Language not spoken, not heard, not felt, not seen, not detectable...
Is that considered a language?

Men's version: Couples live tolerating each other, and believing that there's no one else in the world who can tolerate that person so you have to do the dung job.. And live thinking you're the most honourable person alive.

That's why old ahpehs listen to their wives nag with a look that says "sigh.. why am i such a admirable person?" and tolerating.

And Women's version: couples live thinking the other person will tolerate them.. and believing that there is no one else in the world who can tolerate yourself like that person does... and live thinking you're the smartest person alive.

That's why old ahmahs yell irritating words at their husbands, and end off with a smirk that says "oh man.. only that old fool will tolerate me.."

My Version: Couples live in a dangerous delusion.

2008-09-25T03:28:00.000-07:00

Was popping by the red spot corner today... and made several interesting discoveries.

Firstly, there's humongous books of testpapers there... (okay.. irrelevant..)

Oh.. andDrW's gppower is in the red spot corner (grins)

AND there's this book called "PHILOSOPHY" and my first instinct was to drop it and run.. hahaha.. but curiosity forced me to flip it open and.. well.. philosophy isnt that difficult to understand :P At least the words used and reasonably understandable...

^-^

And so i'm feeling accomplished.. for reading 2 pages of a book named "philosophy"

hahaha.. im obviously beyond bored.

So anyway, im the ranting mood today, so please dont read on if u're not in for reading trash~ ^-^

RAWR... ytd went to buy stuff at westmall... then was totally TOTALLY pissed off by this cashier girl.. ahh!!!! with that pissed off look and that "wth are you doing here?" aura.. SERVICE ATTITUDE = ZERO?!?!

AHH

Pissed.. went out the shop with totally bu shuang feel... nxt time u see her (shall not name the shop.. the products are nice.. just bad servicegirl --> singular.. got a girl sorting out stuff at the back super nice.. they should swop >.<) just ap her abit for me.. slightly plump with squarish specs, tied up hair, a mole on the left cheek... and just damn qianda..

ZZ

now not so pissed le (lucky for her) but yeah.. dun like pp with bad service attitude.. (COME ON! YOU'RE BLOODY P-A-I-D to S-E-R-V-E so do it properly?!?!?!??!)

haha... kk.. just being crappish.

lolx.. found something damn farni..

How to Love

HAHA.. i dun believe it.. there's "STEPS"??!! And the related WikiHows are even funnier.. read at your own leisure.. Below is an excerpt... dear everyone out there, have fun reading, just like i did~

1. Say it. When you say the words "I Love You," do they carry it with them the desire to show someone you love them or do they carry it with them is it what you want to feel? And when you say it make sure you really mean it and are willing to do anything for that special person.

2. Empathize. Put yourself in someone else's shoes. Rather than impose your own expectations or attempt to control them, try to understand how they feel, where they come from, and who they are; and realize how they could also love you back just as well.

3. Love unconditionally. If you cannot love another person without attaching stipulations, then it is not love at all, but deep-seated opportunism (one who makes the most of an advantage, often unmindful of others). If your interest is not in the other person as such, but rather in how that person can enhance your experience of life, then it is not unconditional. If you have no intention of improving that person’s life, or allowing that person to be themselves and accepting them as they are, and not who you want them to be, then you are not striving to love them unconditionally.

4. Expect nothing in return. That doesn't mean you should allow someone to mistreat or undervalue you. It means that giving love does not guarantee receiving love. Try loving just for loving's sake. Realize that someone may have a different way of showing his or her love for you; do not expect to be loved back in exactly the same way.

5. Realize it can be lost. If you realize that you can lose the one you love, then you have a greater appreciation of what you have. Think how lucky you are to have someone to love.

Cherios pp! 5+ weeks to ALEVELS!!!!! WOOOHOOO!!!!

Mug hard.

Love.vs.GP
Love is a language that's harder to learn than GP. There's not even the alphabets to begin with.
Love has greater rewards than GP. It's reaped over a lifetime. GP?
Love transcends all boundaries, race, religion, language, gender. GP? (waffle!)
Love is definitely, confirm plus stamp chop sealed posted read burnt regenerated reconfirm... better than gp.

Undisputable fact. Challenge me.

2008-09-22T19:05:00.000-07:00

Woah.. DrW's comments for my essay are beyond astounding... It requires too much bravery to put it on the blog.. realized after reading it through properly that its really quite bad.. RAWR

And read through my essay. Realized he's right. Which makes everything so. much. worse.

AHHHHHHHHHHH

im dumb.. especially when it comes to writing in ENGLISH. AHHH.

STUPIFIED.

Classic statement: There are not enough exclamation and question marks left in my pen to adequately convey my dismay and bewilderment regarding this essay.

WAHAHA

In short: What the do you THINK you're writing?

I'm good at summary, but SUCK at essay.

Maybe he's right. Maybe there IS something wrong with me.
I just can't imagine how a world that is so beautiful can be bad?
LOOK AT THIS STUFF
Isn't it NEAT?
Wouldn't you think my english is..
Wouldn't you think im the girl, the girl who has.. nothing?

ROFL

i'll be studying hard for gp. i promise.

^-^

Cherios people! Hope u didn't tio DrW.. and hope you had far better comments than i had.

DEVASTATED! (Wah.. cheem word. did i get the spelling correct?)

RAWR

2008-09-20T07:39:00.000-07:00

after ending the previous friday with an auditorium full of pms-ing men and women, the weekend embarked on a relatively good start =)

paiseh to jw for pangsehing badminton.. rlyrly sorry but i seriously not a badminton person >.< [pls for goodness sake i PON pe... ] sorry sorry~

spent the day at the library (HAHAHA) and borrowed nice novels to read.. =)
Looking forward to sitting by the balcony tmr to devour the books~ ^-^ hehex~~

After monday's terrifying gp essay return, we'll have another tuesday break. then jiu shi FULL FLEDGE MUG!!!!

WOOHOO!!!

Met seniors at westmall ytd and xiadao~ :P seniors all look the same. nvr change de.. haha.. nxt year we must also go playplay~~ (surprisingly nicholas and branden nvr shave head??? HM?) haha.. just dun go badminton lah.. we go movie marathon~ or arcading~ pool? =)

=) gor went to get his OMNIA babe shielded.. now its damn chio.. and im looking forward to playing with it (erhem.. HER)

There's an ongoing SingaporeRiverFestival everyone! For those night lifers can go see some stuff bah.. as far as i see it, it's all after 7 (usually after 9) so can go "party" oh~~ HEHE

im jus going to be a nice little girl, sit home, with a huge cup of coffee (a bottle of "cappucino" satchets appeared at my house!!!), preferably got cheesecake but its optional, then read those books~

=)

LIFE ROCKS!

Cherios~

2008-09-18T07:51:00.000-07:00

钱不够用 is damn nice!!!

the song on the wife is damn nice.. k lah.. maybe it is not as good as the mother one.. but i cant find the mother one so i found the wife one:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8eJP4kwQJVs

PleasePlease.. for those who understand hokkien.. just appreciate the song =)
For those who cant understand.. find someone who understand and make the person translate for you.

AND!!! For those who have the song on the mother one.. PLEASE.. PLEASE send me.. =)

I would have translated if im good enough.. but bet mine will suck..

So yeah.. watch the show bah.. i was sobbing into my dad's sleeves like wth?! haha.. when the wife song came on i died-ed.. then the mother song came like 4-5 times?! AND I CRIED EACH TIME?!?!?!

SO i believe its the power of music

Im in love with this song.

=)

=)

=)

lolx.. cherios~

2008-09-17T19:57:00.001-07:00

Ever since i was a child, before even hearing of the word "biology", the urge to delve deeper into the makings of the world came as a natural instinct to me. I was always intrigued; at where babies came from, at what death meant, at how we human beings can move on our own without anything else moving us. Since the day i knew what biology was, and realized that it was a compulsory subject in the syllabus, my life underwent an astounding change. As a child, i never knew that life existed as a dynamic equilibrium. Yet now, even as i realize that change is the only constant, there is one thing i secretly hope would remain unchanged in my lifetime, and that would be the passion and thirst for knowledge in the world of biology.

Personal Statement Attempt 10^E99

I am so screwed.. Just realized my english GG.. one paragraph LITTERED with grammatical errors.. im mortifed.. rofl.. [was tempted to start with "ever since i was a BABY" and realized that's technically impossible]

As the personal statment attempts tend to E99, there will be insignificant changes made.

And disclaimer: I will not use this as my starting paragraph. It's just something i cocked out in 5min.. HAHAHA.. and i was joking about E99 attempts.. i havent even started.. just starting thinking today niahx~ ;)

I miss huangcheng.. where i can speak chinese freely, and not have to be petrified about screwing gp.. Nor have to worry about sleeping in lectures (cause another 100 people are doing the same thing)..

I miss huangcheng. For uncountable reasons.

HUOGUOytd rocks! =) =) =) I feel fatter after the chunks of meat i ate. hahaha..

i dun believe it.. my brother is bloody lucky... he's going to get his masda3 like in 2 weeks?! When we just decided on it the sunday that just passed.. wth?!?! Thot pp buy car at least wait one month one?! how come this lucky boy gets it in 2 weeks (or less?!?!?!?!)

SIAO.

Not joking man.. coe getting easier to biao already.. ZZZZ

i want my license. and i want my car.

NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha... spoilt brat

I want to watch money no enough with my dad.. hehex..

I LOVE THIS SONG!!!!!

Raindrops keep falling on my head by B.J. Thomas

Raindrops keep fallin' on my head

And just like the guy whose feet are too big for his bed

Nothin' seems to fit

Those raindrops are fallin' on my head, they keep fallin'

So I just did me some talkin' to the sun

And I said I didn't like the way he got things done

Sleepin' on the job

Those raindrops are fallin' on my head, they keep fallin'

But there's one thing I know

The blues they send to meet me won't defeat me

It won't be long till happiness steps up to greet me

Raindrops keep fallin' on my head

But that doesn't mean my eyes will soon be turnin' red

Cryin's not for me'

Cause I'm never gonna stop the rain by complainin'

Because I'm free

Nothin's worryin' me

[trumpet]

It won't be long till happiness steps up to greet me

Raindrops keep fallin' on my head

But that doesn't mean my eyes will soon be turnin' red

Cryin's not for me'

Cause I'm never gonna stop the rain by complainin'

Because I'm free

Nothin's worryin' me

=) =) AND THIS ONE TOO!!!!!!

Can't Smile Without You By Carpenters

You know I can't smile without you.
I can't smile without you.
I cant' laugh and I can't sleep,
I dont even talk to people i meet.

And I feel sad when you're sad.
I feel glad when you're glad.
And you must know what I'm going through,
I just can't smile without you.

You came along just like a song
you brightened my day.
Who'd believe you were part of a dream
that always seemed light years away.

And you know I can't smile without you.
I can't smile without you.
And you must know what I'm going through,
I just can't smile without you.

Some people say
the happiness way
is something that hard to find.
Into the new, leaving the old behind me.

And I feel sad when you're sad.
I feel glad when your glad.
And you must know what I'm going through,
I just can't smile without you.

(Instrumental Break)

Into the new, leaving the old behind me.
And I feel sad when you're sad.
I feel glad when your glad.
And you must know what I'm going through,
I just can't smile without you.

IMBA SONG!!!

Haha.. Im crazy le.. Enjoying life as it is..

^-^

Lalala!~~~~~

Remembering moments. Happy times to help tide through bad ones. Memory is of utmost importance. Looking up to you. Loves.

2008-09-16T20:10:00.000-07:00

WOOHOO!!!!!
Kk.. chem pp hold on for one more day!!!! Welcome physics pp to the land of freemen! And Congrats to all bio students for being freepeople since yesterday!!!!!!! =)
Damn Damn Damn Damn happy now~
WOOHOO!!!!

Okay.. so before i forget, let me do a post on mid-autumn festival.. went for a few celebrations throughout the past few weeks.. school's maf, a maf at chuyen park (which my parents were involved in planning)... never take alot of photos.. but better than nothing ;)
WOOHOO!!!!!

Photos from maf:

Haha.. cannot comment much on maf (cos its too late and there's nothing much to comment) Song session was a thorough... hah.. nvm.. hope nxt year's song i/cs can be better oh~ Choose songs wisely k~ Chinese songs are the majority of the reasons for people coming back. Create nostalgia and not "lets sing english songs since we're done with the chinese ones" Heh~ But im glad we had fuN~~!!! Seniors were damn cute~ Nvm lah.. songs i/cs cmi then we can enjoy on our own~~ =)

Photo on 8yue16hao~: (sorry my hands dou.. so picture nuahnuah blurblur) I can practically see chang-e waving! Just that the moon abit seng-eh.. ROFL.. wadeva
=P

Yay!!!LIfe rocks without an exam paper waiting for you tomorrow~~H3de!! GANBATTE NEH!!!!!1 more day to liberation~ Keep going on!!!

Alevels coming in a month's time~ (one month and a half to be exact~)

Let's play for a few more days ba~ Forget the exams for a while~

YIPPEE!!!!

Cherios~ ^-^

2008-09-05T07:24:00.000-07:00

Blogging twice in a day? Im either bored, or bored.

Anyway, following the groundbreaking (hurhur) news of my brother's new license, i went on a ride with him (under dad's supervision of course) as the driver.

Ive gotta say im impressed. Admiration went up another notch.
He's good!

Looking forward to his future job as my driver =)
Omg.. 2 smileys in 2 non-smiley post? My brother is damn good.

Just realized there's something called application syllabus.
Bio, sod off.

Lights, WaterBombs, Noise, MassDance, MassSong, Lanterns, hysteria.
That's all i remember(ed)
Oh.. and utmost craziness and fun of course.
But well, last year i was manning the booth.
This year... we'll see.

Cherios.

Im going to wake up at 2am tomorrow. I'm going to walk my neighbour's cat till 3am. I'm going to go for a movie marathon till 12. Then i'll go shopping with my dad's credit card till 5pm. I'll go carnivore to eat that $80 worth of beef, and head down to school by 6pm. I'm going to burn a dozen lanterns and set the school field on fire. At night, i'll be clubbing, and at 1.57am, catch a random man on the street and strip him bare.

Then run away laughing with ALL his clothes.

Sigh.. just when i was starting to get excited. i was almost finished with the 24 hours..

希望越大，失望越大..

Point taken.

Happy Mid-Autumn Festival.. in advance.

2008-09-04T23:41:00.001-07:00

i cant find an appropriate smiley to use, so i shall, for once, not use any smileys (or sadfaces, or wadevas)

a few more days to prelims (always have a temptation to type promos.. like wth) and a few more days to end prelims. forgot who said it, but i think the person is darn right. cannot start chionging so early de. if not at the later stages will no gas and breakdown one. i think that person is damn bloody smart. and i totally regret starting early.

so moral of the story, start late. chiong faster.

was doing bio (like haha) and turned to chem for solace (like wah) then went back to bio again (like boo hoo hoo)

yoyo! maf tmr! yoyoyo! who's going neh? let's go babes! then can go burn some grass with some candles bought frm csoc! or lets just set the school on fire! burn the math dpt! burn the bio dpt! keep the gp dpt cos we already did the damn paper anyway!!!

let's go!!! we can go play mahjong if things get too boring! Afterall, we can always claim to be alumnis and... they cant give alumnis cs can they?

i dont mind seeing them burn the big lantern.. (oh sorry.. burning things is for orientation right? then i dun mind seeing them.. doing whatever they're doing.)

yoyoyo!!! gogogo!!!

and dun bring your notes! nor ask me to bring mine.. or ill burn them all in lanterns! (okay.. u know there's supposed to be a cheeky smiley behind this line, but cos i cant put.. u know)

Lonely... i am so lonely.. there is nobAdy, im on my own~~~ WOOOOOOOOO

i love this song.

bless the chang-e who's having fun with the rabbit on the moon now.
know you're lonely too.. (who wont be with only a rabbit as company?)
but guess what? you dont have exams to take!
we have BOTH [i dun even have a rabbit!]

YAY!!! MY BROTHER GOT HIS LICENSE!!! I JUST GOT THE NEWS!!! (14:51, 5th SEPTEMBER 2008.. HISTORIC MOMENT!!!!)

Finally something to be happy about!!!! (wants to put a million^million smileys here!!!!!!!!!!!)

Im damn happy now.

Guess what chang-e! You dont HAVE a brother to be happy over like i do~
Be jealous. Be damn bloody freakin jealous!
Cos your rabbit will never EVER get a driving licence!!!!!

Im happy.

YAY!

realize my post without smileys look damn dead. and no "hahas" either.. woah.. im good..
i guess that's the correct me today.
no using smileys to cover up my deadedness. wont help anyway.

maybe i should try having a post without punctuation marks someday.
then abit kan de dong.

i love my brother. and the nice examiner who passed him.
ai wu ji wu.
i probably will love the car too!!!!

Finally, *smiles*
Realize my gor can make me happy.
Im not that lonely afterall =) [i dont care.. im breaking my rule.. my brother deserves a smiley in a no smiley post]

2008-08-31T05:45:00.000-07:00

=) last day of august~ Let's rejoice~

And my sister got herself a IPOD NANO for her birthday.. wth.. all i have is a cheapo mp3..

Life is UNFAIR~!!!

But well at least i got myself nice earphones from the comex fair.. Which happens to be the same one my brother has btw (to me, that's another way of saying its cool~)

my dad got us a 32inch lcd tv.. we're in shock.. but well, we're receiving it quite well =)

Hmm.. what else did we get.. oh.. my dad got a headphone for his soccer match too!! ^-^

Nicenice~~ Would have gotten a new printer if ive been gungho enuf, but guess im just giamsiap... thought for damn long b4 buying the earphones lah..im siap lah siap la~~

But the fair is quite cool~ ^-^ lots n lots of pp.. primarily cameras, tvs and laptops.. not alot of mp3 (sadly) but got a booth with funny stuff like a stand-up iron, fans, ricecooker.. guess pp dun usually go comex fair go buy this kinda things de lah.

^-^

Oooooo~~ "one in a million" is a nice song.. so is "true friend"~~ =)

My sis has nice songs in her ipod.. *smiles*

A few more days to start of prelims (let's just take gp as a horrible nightmare that never happened ^-^)

Chiong AH!!!!!!! *muahahaha*

I should stop living in my own corner with myself as the centre of the universe...
But if i don't... then what do i have for the centre of my universe? [See! That is already a selfish thought in itself!]
Other people have theirselves as their centres of universes isnt it?
Wonder whose lives can revolve around someone else...

If no one can, does that mean we should stop asking that of ourselves?

Hmm..

It's weird to criticize people as only thinking about "me myself and i"

How else can you be thinking?
"they themselves and all of them"???

Weird...

Maybe it would be good if we think "we ourselves and all of us"

But how many of us can?

Hahaha... Criticisms are harsh, are mainly groundless.

There's no reason in the world to feel anymore.

Afterall, your feelings are for urself, but about others.

How selfish can we all be? =)

I can already find a rebuttal for my above thoughts..

Indeed.. it's fun quarrelling with myself.

2008-08-26T06:33:00.000-07:00

Celebrities rock.

And 4000 words WITHOUT标点符号is just the perfect way to end the... (zzz.. cant even find a right word to describe today)

Vulgarities sound correct to me today.

I hate gp.
I repeat.
I H-A-T-E GP..

And i hate celebrities too..
Damn it.. had to make it sound like they're damn zhai when i think they're not.
ZZ..

rofl..

Delusion: A delusion is commonly defined as a fixed false belief and is used in everyday language to describe a belief that is either false, fanciful or derived from deception. In psychiatry, the definition is necessarily more precise and implies that the belief is pathological (the result of an illness or illness process). As a pathology it is distinct from a belief based on false or incomplete information or certain effects of perception which would more properly be termed an apperception or illusion.

Delusions typically occur in the context of neurological or mental illness, although they are not tied to any particular disease and have been found to occur in the context of many pathological states (both physical and mental). However, they are of particular diagnostic importance in psychotic disorders and particularly in schizophrenia and mania in episodes of bipolar disorder.

-Wikipedia (^-^)

WHEE~~ I've been deluded..

Goodluck for muggingXX people~~ =D

I've always dreamt of the day when i would sit down by a grassland, and look upon as cows graze on the poor trodden grass (well.. that's not the point). I'll be drinking caramel latte, eating high quality cheesecake, and listening to fine music playing from a old gramophone (to mask the mooing sounds from the cows) [And YES, a gramophone is the thing that looks like an inverted trumpet]

Nowadays, a new addition is added (mind your english darling.. ADDing a new ADDition?!). My eeyore will be sitting beside me, looking on with his small eyes and purple coat, armed with a pot of honey (stolen from winnie) and trying not to be too frightened by the intimidating looking cows (who are still eating up grasses mind you). He'll make occassional comments on the quality of the music, and propose we change the soundtrack all to disney ones..

I have yet to decide where the place is,
how many cows there will be,
what the temperature of the weather will be like,
what song the gramophone will be playing...

But i guess things will fall in place then~ :)

Let's just hope that day will really come.
Cause as of now, it seems like a longlonglong distant dream.

Well, at least one aspect (the existance of Mr Eeyore.. which happens to be a new addition btw..) is completed.. I just gotta find the grassland, the cows, and a working gramophone (with a working record of course)

How lovely life would be then.
With just me, and my eeyore~

*bliss*

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeyore~~~~~~~~~~~
My only source of comfort for the crappy day (hmm.. dayS to come)

2008-08-23T23:26:00.000-07:00

=)

Last day of olympics.

How time flies. =) Remembered going to china a few years ago (hmm.. was it s3 or s4?) and they were still discussing it as an issue "a few hundred days later"

And now, its a "china's most spectacular event yet"... shux.. means csc essay can no longer quote it as a future advancement le.. (nuah)

Shall watch closing ceremony later ^-^ SunYanZi singing.. nicenice~~

Listening to the dengbashi song.. so now got nicenice feeling..

Zzz.. was intending to do lunwen after gp de (cos scared my english will turn chinese.. ?!) But realized its due before gp exam.. so people, stop dreaming! And go do it bah..
Going back to do it le.. =)

Read a short story this morning.. (gahh.. cos i was just plain bored)
Was so touched i almost cried. (woah gurl.. u're going soft)
It's called "OldLove" by Jeffrey Archer.
It's a good story.. ask from me someday i can lend you =)=)

Learning the art of compromise, the theory of affection, and the meaning of love.

2008-08-22T08:21:00.000-07:00

=)

I seriously dun like chem and math >.<

I have this strange countdown timer thingy (the one that Ms Wong recommended) and it ticks just at the bottom left hand corner of my screen... its really.. irritating cos no matter which window i go to, its there >.<

And now it says 2months8days25min WLAO (to a levels la)

And its a few more days to prelim GP.. *swears* I utterly H-A-T-E gp.. rofl..

[notes the extent of words used..]

Well.. jiayou peepx~ ^-^

Its never easy to guess how someone else thinks.
Somehow i know its unfair on my part to expect certain things..
Sorry i havent been all that great.
But a friend's a friend. And i want to learn to be a proper friend, for once.
When someone means alot to you, you keep trying.
It takes courage to ask.. and i hope you know that.
Someday realize that a friend is still there waiting.
And my offers to help still stand. Whenever.
Glad to hear from others you're fine too..
Best of luck~ =)
Talk soon, k? :)

Time flies.. =)
*smiles*
*plucks courage*
*says...*
*ZZ*
*tries again*
you know im trying...
90 (+-5) days of happiness..
E99 more to go~

2008-08-20T07:00:00.001-07:00

Yay! Shall do a combined post today.. since its the last day of school, no 7am shit tmr, so shall spend a little time relaxing.. =)

Had a sister belated birthday dinner last weekend.. ji FARN!

Super long never eat together le.. so family had quality time together (before going home to shout at the tv for the sporechina match :P)

It was pouring that day..

Being my parents, they brought good wine to go along with it (Okay.. its not like white wine but its still nice to drink so i dun care :P)

My DAD is the new coverpage boy for this brandname man.. he's uber cool~~Anyway, we braved the winds and arrived at a nice place in changi (I repeat.. we went from BUKITBATOK to CHANGI) But i gotta admit the food is good ^-^

Being camwhores (with my GOR around?!), me and gor had a nice time taking photos....... (WHEEEE)
Not forgetting the bdae gal (MEI!) [OI... smile leh.... hahh.... coolgal]

And my parents!! (WOOHOO!! Classic smile!~~) [20+ years of marriage and you know when to smile for the camera, tilt together in the most favourable angle, and genuinely glow in happiness~~~
Overall, it was a good dinner~ =D [Goodconclusion for a good story told.. well done *pats head*]

[Z?! They're not looking at my camera?!!?!?!]

Okay.. then it was the last day of school today... overall, it was an uneventful day i guess.. except that i had a huge bump on my knee after slipping during chem photo taking session (which was fun).. guess it was PRIMARILY due to my non-friction shoes (WAH LAO! NO SOLES LIAO!!!) and the smooth, well cleaned classroom floor..

Ms Wong, Thank you for your kind gifts!! The cake is imba nice!~~ And the message was sweet.. thankew~ =)

How time flies...... shall not do the "last thing i remembered i was still a j1" cause with my short memory, the last thing i remembered was probably just a moment ago.. i dun remember the feeling of being a j1 le.. more of being a s4 though.. rofl..

Anyway, ive not graduated yet so too early for EMO-IFIED words..

But im still a little shocked at how these days we spend together pass so fast.. rofl..

Still, some things will always remain in the corner of my little brain.. no promises i can correctly spell out your full names 10 years from now.. but once i see your face, think a little while, i sure remember de.. especially if you poke me hard and ask me to go and die.. =)

Weilin, Florence, Xiaowen, Wenrui, Pengrong..

Zhende forget de liao..

hahh..

Anyway... guess we just all study hard ba... some things are best left to fate.

^-^

This shall be kiv-ed till after a levels.. as of now, ganbatte minnasan~~ =)

S73.. we're not the most united class, nor the smartest (or stupidest either), not the exceptional either... but we're the only jc class we'll get in our own lives.. its a little weird to think abt it now.. but well, i'm glad im in this class =)

Zz.. weird saying this~ hehhx~~

Hehh.. today's photos i intending to upload but v slow so i see how bah.. can ask me for it oh~ ^-^

Study hard people! Prelims and A-levels will be over soon~~~

Best of Luck~ ^-^

Cherios~

True Bliss: Feeling a tingle of happiness run down your spine, spiral through your brain, and land at the core of your heart... where it stays for eternity~
I love you.

How does one measure happiness?
By length of time? By number of smiles?
Maybe its the way your heart winces when you see sadness in the eyes,
Maybe its the indignant feeling whenever any little thing said makes you feel unappreciated.
Maybe its the nagging thought in your head asking you if you can do more? or if you can bring him true happiness?

One moment in time... when dreams soar beyond the clouds... and the picture perfect lies in the person beside you.

2008-08-16T18:51:00.000-07:00

=) Happy belated bdae to my sister~~ ^-^

Drank abit while singing happy bdae, then for some dunno what reason (maybe due to combination of curry dinner and popiah vege..) woke up the next morning feeling like a meteor crashed into my head.. hahhhhh..

and there goes my saturday.. spending the day rolling about in bed and wishing the panadol(S) i ate would help..

so after a fantastic dinner(?!) on saturday night, i went to bed at 8pm... and slept all the way till NOW!!!!!!!!

WOOHOO

ThankGoodness i dun have a fetish for breaking records... 13 hours is already too much for my poor back to endure..

I never want to be sick again.

But i'm still grateful for the dreamless stupor that i went into... well deserved rest indeed =)

Singapore's finals VS China today at 7.30pm... GO SINGAPORE!!!!

[But... its still 2 chinese vs 2 chinese isnt it?? rofl]

And... GOR! That is SOOOOOO not farni... =P

Moral of the story: Don't work too hard... But don't rest too much either~
休息是为了走更长的路.
*eeyore agrees to a VERY large extent*
I LOVE EEYORE!!!!!!!!!

2008-08-10T06:45:00.001-07:00

=) Happy BIRTHDAY big guy!!! ^-^

Ur bdae party lagi like huangcheng carnival lahx.. and ur personal photo album just expanded itself significantly =P

Nice people deserve nice treatment.. WE LOVE YOU!!!! So the newspapers and oreo(S) and special concoctions are purely signs of friendliness~~ hehex~~

And be glad.. ur bdae bigger event than nationalday... u dun see pp turning up 9AM for ndp de siah... i sleep 7plus hours niah.. cant blame me for nuahing ohx~~ ^-^

=)

*smiles* today is a good day~
Woke up just in time to watch hitch.. wlao that show is imba =) laughed my head off like dunno wad..

and i totally think this is a bid to increase the marriage streak in singaporeans... first "love is in the air" for ndp, now some sweet nice love story..

man.. they're trying hard.

kk.. think im just reading too much into it.. =)

YAY! Hyped with a good afternoon long sleep (ZZZZ) YIPPEE!!

Good mood~ =)

TMR NO SCHOOL!!!!!

hahh.. mood just brightened ANOTHER notch.. nicenice~~

lala~~~

Have a great national day non-school day tomorrow peepx!!!! *smiles*

"Hmm... What shall we toast to?"

"Never lie, steal, cheat, or drink. But if you must lie, lie in the arms of the one you love. If you must steal, steal away from bad company. If you must cheat, cheat death. And if you must drink, drink in the moments that take your breath away. "

NB: Corny lines are BEST to make a girl smile and go soft in the knees.. its a added bonus if you have WillSmith's sexy eyes. ^-^

There are always things that people will want..
Never ending cycle of desires that is the exact murder of happiness..
When can anyone ever be truly satisfied with what they have?
Happy one moment, sad the other.
There's something i truly want this moment..
But i know i wont be as happy as i imagine even if i get it (which i know i wont anyway)
Still.. it's a nice thing to keep hoping.
Cause its this little hope in you that makes everything you're doing worth it.

I'm hoping =)

Im so easily jealous i should be a lime.. >.<
haha..

2008-08-08T21:45:00.000-07:00

Happy NATIONAL DAY!!! =)

Hahh.. came home to see countries being introduced for the olympics opening.. guess i missed the nice fireworks display (that is quoted as "seemingly neverending") Its okay.. there's always the replay i guess ^-^

Beijing Olympics Opening

=)

^-^

Have fun this national day weekend~

2008-07-22T04:34:00.000-07:00

=)

Had a little melancholy left in me after school today. came home and decided to do a little blog surfing.. went to read alot of funny stuff and found the 407blog the best..

Well, at least, it was the oldest i could remember =)

most people's links disappeared.. guess things do change after 2 years..

haha.. wanted to tag but realized i didn't know what to write le.. Zzzz..

But still.. those were happy times. ^-^

Maybe, i wont change my blog url for a long long time.. just so that people can still find me =D hahax~~

Reading yizi's blog.. and oh man.. hahh.. i still love her.. Still remember the times we would just nuah around and do nothing, then read comics under the table with litian and jiehui in s1n2, then randomly pretend to be listening when all we're doing is reading hanakimi... Then i picked up a weird habit of calling her yizi.. and it stuck till now... s1n2 have that family game thingy, then i was didi, she was jiejie... i had 5 children whom i dun remember now.. i had a wife... hahh... then s2n3, met ruoshuang (who doesnt have a blog!!!) hahh..

ny was such a small community everyone could be linked as long as you try hard enough... everyone's link list is like uber uber long.. lolx...

My link list outdated le.. rofl..

hahh..

time flies... tmr got closing ceremony.. that means 2 years has passed since my time at ayls..

guess ive moved on. and so has everyone.

hahh.. shall go back to reading tiresome chem... or maybe i should just sleep early tonight.

=)

I love EEYORE!!!!!!

Cheerio~~~

Happy Studying~

2008-07-11T22:49:00.000-07:00

Today's 12th July..

Rmb 1507 and went to the xyxy blog.. realized the tagboard is officially dead.. (even deader than mine..)

But believe everyone left a place for it in their hearts.

=)

Havent heard news of the gathering.. 1507 pp!!!! DOKO DESU KA?!

haha..

must meet k? plspls! ^-^

As the responsible zongwu, i have a whole collection of imba photos... was looking through some of them just now.. and vividly remembered the times we had rehearsals at poolside..

Though im sorry to say i dont remember the lines anymore.. >.<

Photo of the century - 你看！那里有金鱼！

好大的湖啊(yhong)
？？？？？Forgot what yhan said in response
Everyone dissolved in laughter...
嗯。对。以后我们可以去游泳。。。(yhong)

你看！那里有金鱼！(yhan)
Oh... 我以前家里有养过金鱼耶！
哦？是吗？
是啊！然后它们最后死掉了。
怎么死的?
哦，是饱死的。我喂他们吃太多东西了。回家的时候就死了。
....... 哈哈哈。我以前也养过... (forgot what he said cause i was too busy laughing...)

Guess i'm not a very good 总务/摄影组 afterall... rofl..

Fond memories.

Ask me for videos if you want... i have quite a few hilarious ones.. (like i happened to catch a 1 second video of the yihong's 好大的湖啊)

We were kids then. Hope we all didn't grow up too much. 2 years niah...

lunwen is crap. crap. crap.

Have a great weekend guys~ ^-^

2008-07-11T07:06:00.000-07:00

Sigh... that talk is seriously uber... dun even know how to describe.

But i've decided. No point wasting time thinking about whether to chiong or not. Cos at the end of the day, chionging is the only.. ONLY.. way to get anywhere.

So instead of wasting valuable seconds on it, i should just chiong.

But i'm still as determined as before, if not more determined.
I AM going to get in.
Because I. AM. THE. ONE.

I'm trying.

Jia you then. =)
Guess the determination is all i need now to continue working.
Then can worry about the interview questions and stuff after a levels.
For now. ... ... ...
Ya.

Came home feeling quite 沉重, deep in thought while walking up the murderous hill.

So went to nuah around instead of doing the lunwen i should be doing.
Went to print the papers ms wong put up on emb.
Then went to google for more questions, but to not avail..
Haha... those who know where to get good chem questions (mcq also can) leave a tag can? Googling is serious not the best/ most efficient way of searching...

Thinking not only about the future (as bleak as it may seem...) but also about myself lah.. There ought to be something about me worth the time that the interviewers spend. And i gotta find that something...

And it doesnt help that im nursing a bruised ego as i come home. I've always been proud of the fact that i know what im doing, exactly where im going, and almost exactly what im going to get from doing something. Getting ego deflation at this point in time isnt helping... but it does serve as a wake-up call.. at least i feel awake now >.< (wont be sleeping well for a long time... hehex)

=.=

Felt a little pang in my heart when a thought struck me.
Time flies when you're having fun.
Guess that's why time flies pretty fast for me most of the time...
But wonders if that's the same for the people around me...
Ever wondered if the person sitting across the table feels the way you feel?
Its ironic when you hope the moment never ends yet the person ends the moment in an instant.
Guess everyone has their own considerations and mindsets isnt it?
Maybe we just weren't at the same frequency at that time =)

Shall exhibit emotional maturity now.
"Heartaching" moments must pass quickly, or it will create damage beyond repair.
I'll dispel the thought. This instant. And accept it as a way of life.
And I'm me again. =)

Shall stop thinking le.
Thinking wastes energy, and is highly inefficient.

Cheers.

2008-07-09T05:38:00.000-07:00

Good times, bad times.

Feeling odd today.

Scholarship fair repeated itself in our school compounds today. lots of people flooded there.. ji crowded.. stayed in there for about 10 minutes, buay tahan...

Siao... just read somewhere pms usually occurs 2 weeks prior to menstruation.. wth? the whole cycle is only 28 days and girls spend 14 days pms-ing?!?! Life is just super duper uber unfair.

I have no idea wth the lunwen is supposed to look like... and its getting on my nerves.

When schooling becomes a duty, and responsibilities become a part of your life, you know you aren't getting any fun any time soon.

Maybe that's why i feel the fun creeping away from me.

The responsibility to take the a lvls seriously is the set of (something that wl likes) that binds us to this eternal fate of suffering and misery.

Chained to a moving caravan.
You stop, you die.
So just move on.

Haix.

Why cant the process just be a little more enjoyable?

Life is full of mysteries my little brain cant solve.

Jiayoux pp.

I lub you bigbig... 1314... (=P)

Rawr.. im randoming.

Have fun oh guys!

2008-07-06T00:27:00.000-07:00

Can't say i regret being a cam-whore at times.... seeing photos jolt my tiny memory... and lets me remember everything all over again.

So nxt time someone raises an eyebrow at my photos, im going to whack them hard in the head :P

A picture says a thousand words.

So nxt time go out take lots of pictures k!

Things aren't the same anymore... well.. things have never stayed the same for longer than a split second.

But i miss the times we had.

Now, for some reason known to us, or maybe unknown to us as well... we're behaving differently.

Don't la.

Staying happy and funky together should be the way... for the rest of our lives.

There is something called eternal friendship you know..

Don't let anything change in between any of us. And don't let anything break this circle of friendship.

会庆ytd costed me my voice, and a broken toenail... hehehex..

But more importantly, i had so much fun with my batchmates, and the friends i hold dear to.

Things may have changed, but i dont want to trade things for things. Life is not a trading ground...

Why is it true that when you gain something, you lose another?

We are players in our own little game of life.

So why can't we control what we gain and lose? >.<>.<

Guess the emoing part isnt so much about passing down anymore... its more about moving on.

大家，加油咯！

Trivia:
Went on a bus with a few older people in the morning yesterday..
A classic quote...

"Aging is a mandatory process.. you start aging ever since you're conceived in your mother's womb.. you're one day older, one month older..... but growing old is optional.. you can always choose to stay young!!!!" *nods of agreement amongst everyone*

2008-07-02T06:56:00.000-07:00

Yay!!

First day in school.. nice day =)

Good start, good omen.

Jiayou people.

We can make it ^-^

Word of the day : NUAH

中文学会会庆2008

这个星期六

5pm

礼堂 (HALL)

There's a best dress competition so come dressed ready for it! ^-^

CYA oh!!!!

2008-06-29T03:44:00.000-07:00

Note to all:

中文学会会庆2008
5th July 2008
(It's this coming Saturday by the way...)

Exact date and time... Moxiang will sms you guys soon.. If not, ask me for his number, and you can go kachiau him ^-^

But no matter what, must go oh!

Seniors also must go k!!! J3s and above~ Communication has never been easy, so if you have no idea about it, really sorry! But please go oh!

=)

Blocks ending tomorrow.. with a FOUR (just found out frm yh) question chem paper and CSC.... (HMM)

Tomorrow will be a good day.

Its Narnia now... i go watch le =P

Good luck for tomorrow!

And happy birthday to gor! ^-^ I LOVE YOU!!!!!

2008-06-25T06:11:00.000-07:00

Chem paper today was...

CSC paper today was also...

nvm..

good mood today(smiles) + got to eat my beloved cheesecake (double smiles) + receive nice stuff (triple smiles)

= a very happy me!!

Shant let my guard down.. shall go see how to get sharks, dolphins, and peppered moths into my brains.... hmm... on the contrary, maybe just knowing how our friend the retrotransposon works may serve as a better option..

both sound equally intimidating.

friday is going to be... er-hem... enjoyable.

3+3 hour paper... ROFL

good luck guys!

And best of luck for physics pp tmr! ;)

(lala.. shall sleep in tmr =P)

2008-06-21T22:57:00.000-07:00

WHERE IS EVERYONE?!?!?!?!?!!

Wth... nobody.. i repeat, NOBODY is around eh!

The world seems G-O-N-E... as in.. where the hell IS everybody?!?!

SIGH...

Last day of the... June non-school days... kinda depressing but well.. don't have much of a choice do we? =)

Cheers to our last June Holidays as college students...

Sigh.. a month has passed just like that... a month away from school and i totally dont miss it.. guess graduation won't be as emotional or cry-able as i think it is.. at least the things we miss wont include the school structure or anything belonging to it...

Thought people are supposed to go back to school feeling rejuvenated, recharged and ROARING with energy to chiong through the rest of the year... always thought that was the original purpose of a term break... Didn't achieve this year's aim i guess.. =P

Guess it isnt the studying that sucks... In fact... i dont really know what is it that sucks.. Whatever IT is, IT just sucks.

Ever felt that feeling of dread? Like when you know you've gotta do 2.4 in a moment's time, or when you're collecting your psle results? (^-^ hahhhh.. our only recollection of a major exam...)

AHH

Desperate desire to go out shopping... eat nice CHEESECAKE, drink caramel latte, buy something stupid, watch some crap movie, re-read my entire ArtemisFowl series, go kbox, go ice skating, go play that dumb arcade basketball-throwing brainless game, sleep beside the singapore river, take a bus ride from jurong east to changi, walk barefooted around some random shopping centre....

Whew..

Even i find myself half-bonkers. Must be the effects of the last day of the H-days.

Was trying to look for human beings to.. you know, feel like a human being...
And just realized that nobody is around...

*knockknock*
*echoes*

The onli ones responding are the people i dun want to talk to. *sobs*

Goodness..

Sigh.. Im bored... seriously really really really damn bored.

Good luck to all for blocks.

拥有了要珍惜。
失去了要释怀。
拥有未必是幸福。
失去未必要痛苦。
=) 加油。

2008-05-20T04:16:00.000-07:00

A moment of silence for the sichuan and myanmar victims..

May peace be with them.

Heard there's that put a rainbow on ur msn nick thingy and msn will donate money de.. no matter if its myth or not, just put. okay? =) It's (R) btw.. ^-^

=) Today is a cool cool day~ (No.. not the weather..)

That new bridge thingy is SERIOUSLY damn cool!!! Haha.. you know that one that connects telok blangah to mount faber?! haha.. that place is nice lahx.. (not trying to advertise anything here...) Good for fit pp lah.. im seriously too nuah..

9km too hiong.. so decided to narrow to 4km liddat onli.. so its laxing oh~~ ^-^

So for all walkaholics living in the bukitgombak/hillview/goodviewRC area, do join us for a walk this holidays!! Its on 8th June 2008 (Sunday).. meeting time at place 730 at Block 386 there.. "Tickets" going at $2 for thirst quenching liquid and transport to and fro~~ ^-^ Interested tell me oh!!~~

For pp not living in the area, wanna help me do road marshalling also can tell me ^-^ hehex.. that place noob complex.. even I got lost!! (OMG.. that place must be DAMN complicated) hahaha~~ just some simple guiding lahx.. quite mundane tho so come prepared oh~ OH! And if ur camera skills are zhai, also can find me oh!! I need a camera person (if not i'll hav to do it? HMM..)

haha.. organizing walks is fun~~ hehex~~ Its a small walk so no stress.. even MORE fun!!~~ *smiles*

Went reccee today with James and JunCai.. quite fun sia! haha.. if onli i was daring enough to let them think im a psycho, i would have tried cam whoring with them.. but of cos din lahx.. guaiguai go around finding dangerous spots.. =) But that place is seriously damn nice.. that curvey whirly thingy is uber fun.. if only the planks are not that close together.. then can see the road below sure damn fun!! Or change to a glass floor with wire mesh.. WOAH.. think it'll be THE thing mans!!

Then went on to mount faber.. thank goodness i was in a car.. if not i tmr dunnit walk liao.. wonder how those uncle aunties run around there eh.. the slope is quite meng..

BUT the view is COOL!!! haha.. someone told me before mount faber is good for night viewing.. i guess it must be true.. =) Lotsa couples there so its a romantic place.. but PLEASE boys, use your brains.. dun bring ur girl there in the afternoon.. its scorching hot.. either go damn late, or damn early (see ur girl wad kind lahx) AND be prepared with water.. the drinks there are imba ex.. James had to fork out $30++ for 3 glasses of fruit juice.. SANE.. I ji guilty lah.. >.<

OH.. and boys and girls, please dont do funny things there.. there are PEOPLE watching you!! haha.. accidentally saw a couple in a car doing.. er-hem.. weird stuff.. James had to warn me not to stare =P =P hehex..

Today is fun~~ ^-^

Im nuts.. Walk too much liao.. sun got into my head~~ ^-^ [To be honest, i only walked a short path onli.. to see that curvey whirly bridge.. the rest was on car =P]

Nono.. on a serious note. This path is seriously cool.. it's like a combination of alot of metal structures amongst forest trails.. A true blue city trail if you think about it.. Not as junglish as bukit timah hill.. But more of a blend of both.. okok.. enough advertisement =P

My feet now imba.. can tell i wont be walking properly tomorrow =P Im seriously.. super duper uber nuah.. *SIGH* =)

spent a fruitful weekend serving the community~ haha.. imh is a depressing and mind boggling place.. but i tink somehow the pp there are less scary than the people outside.. WE.. (yes.. W-E as in "normal people") are definitely a thousand times scarier than the people there.. They are harmless.. and people out here are definitely out to harm.. *sigh*

^-^ Life rocks when you're having fun~~ ^-^ haha

Tomorrow have that art fest concert thing.. im seriously considering going.. but dunno eh.. haha.. anyone interested? =P Shall do work soon.. havent been doing anything.. lol.. Okok.. in a while =)

On the way home with juncai, we talked abit.. he's a married man, so guess he has that tad bit more experience lahx~ ;) And somehow, i realize everyone is the same eh.. guess all wives nag alot, and scold alot.. guess all wives are just girls who are ultra possessive lahx..

He said marriage is the end of love.. i added that it is the start of living life.

He said nothing is permanent in the world nowadays.

He said women are weird.. ask for romance then scold you for being romantic. Say no when they really mean yes. And i guess that's right.

Haha.. But.. he also said life can be tiring with marriage.. and someone breathing down his neck day in day out... then added.. but then, life can never be boring le.. *smiles*

He said life is a matter of choice.. =)

And he's happy~ [Oh btw, he had his first girlfriend at 25, who happens to be his wife now.. His girl is a new born.. 18 years my junior.. sane.. FYI~] Hahax.. cool guy~~ ^.^

Haha.. my latest song indulge: When you say nothing at all

It's amazing how you can speak right to my heart
Without saying a word, you can light up the dark
Try as I mayI could never explain
What I hear when you don't say a thing

The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me whenever I fall
You say it best when you say nothing at all

All day longI can hear people talking out loud
But when you hold me near you drown out the crowd
Try as they may they could never define
What's been said between your heart and mine

=) nice right?? hehex~~

I'm stupid.. im really really stupid...
But too bad.. i'm having fun~

I don't look back when i walk. Not often.
So i never expected others to do so.

But nowadays, i like to walk behind.
Maybe that's where i can see things.
And not be seen at the same time.

Friend =) (I know you'll read the tiniest font so i deliberately write one.. hehex) I owe you big time.. Everytime i try to thank you i end up writing crap.. rawr.. ^-^ Each "friend" you say to me means ALOT oh.. Sorry i end up letting u clear up after me always.. ^-^ I owe you many many many.. and i lurb you big big oh!! =D Im 24/7 on standby for you.. anything must tell me!! cannot always i tell you de.. ^.^ gam siah~

Woah.. i nan de blog blog so long.. hahaha

Cherios~

2008-05-06T06:34:00.000-07:00

=)

Once again, the time of the year when i'd be thinking through stuff.. all over again~ haha..

Im glad i had my last 17th snacktime with the friend i treasure the most now.. ^-^ The day was tiring.. but you made me ENERGIZED!!

Read Chicken soup for the teenage soul thingy today.. then realized that.. i wasnt exactly the bestest best person for a good friend.. cos i dun listen alot. I talk alot, comment alot, try to solve problems alot... but i dun listen... the person in the poem sounded pissed that her friend doesnt listen. So from now on, i promise to listen =) Maybe thats y i decided to sms u bah... cos i suddenly needed you to know im trying... cos i aint doing it v well..

(ragh.. im rattling)

Well.. Went for a haircut jus now.. now my hair ji cute :P lol.. jkjk.. sama sama lah.. just shorter niah..

but well.. the process of haircutting was cool~ At least i had fun~~ hehex.. the auntie who cut my hair uber like me lah! 人见人爱 =P (JOKING) then still say 帅哥 bring girlfriend... hehex.. ya loh.. i also think we look like bgf worx~ ;) but laxing laxing.. im PERFECTLY sane :P

Walking around was fun.. din get to buy a present eventually but well.. i was very very glad to have that 1 hour of conversation.. you have no idea how much it made me soooo much happier i was turning 18.. a part of me was kinda dampened by how stuff were going.. but well.. you know how you always can make me happy ^-^

And random talking crap is damn damn damn cool~~

2nd time out, and definitely not the last right? =D

Next time your birthday then my turn to pei you~~

And your laughter is nice loh! So laugh more, no matter what other people say~~

smiles~~

Sigh.. going out made me feel SOO much better.. ermx.. things werent going exactly as smoothly as it shud (seeing its the 18TH?!!!!) and well.. was kinda upset at the comments la.. atmosphere jus wasnt right for bdae song singing.. rofl..

Thank goodness i now feel fine.. So thanks!

Phew.. enough of today.

Well.. for the past year of my life. i gues the most major part of it is 黄城.. no joke.. now that i think back....... the ONLY thing was 黄城！！

And somehow, i'm glad. =)

The past year was made special because of everyone who had a share in it.. everyone was special.... and that made me special to myself =D That sounds weird...

Dun wanna say much.

But im thankful.

=)

Just read my post last year just before my birthday.. i guess i did grow up afterall.. just a teeny weeny bit..

I sounded happy last year.. happy to turn 17.. happy to finally grow into the shoes of a 17-year-old.

I seem to like the reponsibilities that came along.. i seemed to look forward to being able to be matured, and no longer childishly say whatever i want to say.

I wished to be an adult. Someone people can trust. Someone who will never be sad.

Today?

18 years old sounds like the big leap forward (ehx?).. as in.. it sounds like im moving from one phase to another..

But somehow, a part of me know.. i wont feel remarkably different between 2359 and 0000... In fact.. i'll still be me no matter how many "birthdays" i go through..

But i have indeed changed i guess..

当学会如何勇敢面对的时候，大概已经成长得差不多了。
该是时候不要把生活的责任推给其他人为我肩负。
我已经慢慢在学了。我学得不简单，但是我可以。

长大了，是不是就要学会相信自己；多过相信其他人
长大了，是不是就要学会自己面对；多过依赖其他人
长大了，是不是就要学会控制自己的心；多过任由自己情绪思想到处“游荡”

Maybe it IS time for me to grow up

ill make my wish for my 18th year then.. (besides world peace, less global warming and no wars)

I wish to be someone that can be truly happy.

I wish to be able to trust someone.

I wish to be able to be the old childish me.

haha.. I'm actually wishing for myself to NOT grow up..

我果然已经长大了

Looking forward to the 18th year of my life. I've spent my 17th in happiness and in the company of friends.. i've learnt the value of smiles, and the value of trust.

And i know my 18th will be better. =)

I have lots of people to thank.. not for their presents, but simply for their presence...

But shant name. Too weird.

Haha..

Tomorrow will be a good day.

Ciaox~

回家真好 - 郭美美

想念属於纯真年代
快乐单纯如晴天
白云蓝天绿野阳光
看得见的美好
成人的世界好复杂
彷佛总走入阴天
乌云灰暗冷冷空气
好想加快步伐
往熟悉的方向回去

有一个家能够回去真好
家人的爱永远不减少
关切的慰问或安慰的拥抱
受伤后是最好的治疗
有一个家能够回去真好
家的温暖是不会熄灭的光芒
让我又重燃了希望

孩提时候奶奶哼的歌谣
每每失落时总不经意哼唱
彷佛回到童年时光
回家真好其他都不重要

2008-04-30T06:31:00.000-07:00

=) happened to catch the channel u korean drama the past few days.. some 七公主 thingy.. ytd (or was it the day b4) jus when i was about to switch it off and go off, the guy in the screen said something like this "你们女人就是这样，感情用事。幸亏我们男人是理性的。"

ROFL.. died-ed laughing..

okok.. trivia.. thot it was a funny statement tho.. =D

Exams in less than a week's time. Time to start studying hard ^-^

Hehex.. finally in the mood. Guess CSM wasnt useless afterall.. managed to remind me that im a student afterall.

It's our last time doing everything.. haha.. how amazing. I cud somehow still remember going for csm in s2. (think s1 have like sars or sth.. rofl.. no memory) remembered the hot weather, the times we did nanzhong quan, the times when i ponned and went out for breakfast.. the times when i actually cheered shange.. hahh.. amazing.

Xhc came and went. Triggered lots of thinking in me bah.. prob cos i dun tink much.. haha.. Things come and go, and leave their seemingly invisible traces in my life.. When something becomes so important that i cant seem to let go, maybe its fine to jus hold on to a strand of it and keep it deep somewhere.. But still, time to let the bulk of it move on..

Well.. even if you dont, things will still move on.

The new exco must jiayou.. i trust u guys.. jus as i trust myself. Guess we've all got to start out somewhere. I had my turn, so its yours now. =D You guys can do it de!! ^.^

A part of me just needs time to adapt. But things will be fine i believe~ ^.^

Oh ya.. btw, Pictures for xiaohuangcheng

Always thot it takes alot to affect me.. but i guess i'm wrong. im quite a tissue-paper when dealing with this kinda things.. even little stuff make me weep.. sane..

There are times when you feel something, see something, guess alot of things.. (probably imagined) and still choose to believe in what you cannot see, cannot feel or cannot detect at all.. some all it insisting. I call it myself. So i guess.. im just trying to make it difficult for myself afterall.

Thot i'd gotten over the games of deceit. Thot i outgrew the era of skipping a heartbeat and sweating palms. Thot i never had to guess another person's thots or read another person's mind. Thot i never had to endure the torturous wait of minutes for an sms reply.

Guess i never left where i started afterall.

OKay.. im randoming.. again. Simply had lots of thots inside i needed to get OUT of the system.. hehex.. wonders if this will truly help..

May starts in abt 2 hours time.. a new month le.. last thing i remembered was april fools.. LOL..

Depressing song... hahh..

Learn to be lonely ~ Phantom of the Opera

Child of the wilderness
Born into emptiness
Learn to be lonely
Learn to find your way in darkness

Who will be there for you
Comfort and care for you
Learn to be lonely
Learn to be your one companion

Never dreamed out in the world
There are arms to hold you
You've always known
your heart was on its own

So laugh in your loneliness
Child of the wilderness
Learn to be lonely
Learn how to love life that is lived alone

Learn to be lonely
Life can be lived life can be loved alone

2008-03-29T21:27:00.000-07:00

Its getting easier to fall into a vicious cycle of depressing thoughts...

And i'm enjoying it.

Blocks results are demoralizing. Devastatingly morale-crushing.

H3 was ... Practical report haunting. It knocked on my door. And i locked it out.

Its elections briefing tmr. Passing over starts from now.

Re-read word documents from last year. Never knew i wrote so many stuff. Never knew how it would feel to re-read stuff. Never knew how much those meant to me. Never knew that i could remember the exact moment when i was writing those, making phone calls and handling msn conversations at the same time.

Never knew how fast it can be.

Time flies when you're having fun.

And there's always something to move on to.

Thinking is tiring. Staying at home facilitates thoughts.

So i think i wanna go out.

Soon.

I want a shoulder to lean on. I want a heart to listen. I want a soul to understand.

Too much to ask. Too little achieved.

Satisfied with you willing to come out on random requests. You probably already know, but jus in case you dont.. you mean alot to me =)
Cause you make walking meaningful. And that's hard.

JolinTsai has nice songs i realized.. 酸甜not bad...

Random-ing.

2008-02-23T21:07:00.000-08:00

Dunno how to start.

Finally had the urge to blog.. guess its the hard parts of life that is worth remembering after all...

Did a horrible horrible horrible thing.. nah... i did LOTS of horrible stuff.. but yesterday was the worst of the lot... guess it sucks knowing that what you've said stabbed a million people, and that you've successfully ruined everything.. EVERYTHING... you wanted to achieve..

That's what happens when you do stuff on impulse.. you screw things up.

Lots of things to patch up. Lots of explanation to do. Lots of alternative methods to think of.

I hate myself when im like this.. i hate it.

Ya.. you're right. Know i shouldnt think about it. But well.. i've forgotten how i used to be..

Rift between me and the world growing bigger..
Feels isolated..

Nvm..

Should learn to enjoy this feeling afterall.
Cause its me.

how would I have done it? I dunno..
I dun remember.
I is forgotten.

So... I don't exist.. not anymore.

:)

Happy thoughts..

I dont want things to end.. 2 weeks from now I'll still miss this..
Maybe not the horrible part.
Maybe only the not so horrible parts.
But i'll still cry and wanna come back.

But well.. living at this moment in time.
Hard to have a mentality 2 weeks ahead.

The I now hates I.
Half of I hates the other half of I.
Schizophrenia.. haha..

I overdid it.
Im sorry.
Im really really sorry.
But I had to do it.
Hope you guys understand.

2008-01-12T07:54:00.000-08:00

I'm tired...

But still decided to spend some time doing dumb stuff tonight.. an hour break from doing normal serious stuff or sleeping.. went to search lyrics and stuff and still ended up with older songs.. new songs nowadays seriously.. quite cham..

Anyway, the week was crazy.. and well.. ya.. HMM... okay.. yah.

Everyone looks tired.. but let's jiayou k!! Gotta hold on~ There's still a long way to go... But whenever i remember im not alone, and that everyone is going through this together, and that everyone will be holding on to each other right to the last moment, im thankful~ And for that, i'll move on~ =)

=.= noob chim..

So yepx.. was in a bimbo mood so chose this song today:

Things I'll Never Say Lyrics - Avril Lavigne

Ladatadata ladatadatadadadatadada dadadadada

I'm tuggin' at my hair
I'm pullin' at my clothes
I'm tryin' to keep my cool
I know it shows

I'm staring at my feet
My cheeks are turning red
And i'm searching for the words inside my head

Cuz I'm feeling nervous
Tryin' to be so perfect
'Cause I know you're worth it, you're worth it
Yeah...

If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I want to blow you--away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight?
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down--on one knee
Marry me today
Guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say

It don't do me any good it's just a waste of time
What use is it to you what's on my mind?
If it ain't comin' out, we're not going anywhere
So why can't I just tell you that I care?

'Cause I'm feeling nervous
Tryin' to be so perfect
'Cause I know you're worth it, you're worth it
Yeah...

If I could say what I wanna say
I'd say I want to blow you--away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight?
If I could see what I wanna see
I want to see you go down--on one knee
Marry me today
Guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say

(What is)What's wrong with my tongue?
These words keep slipping away
I stutter I stumble like I've got nothing to say

'Cause I'm feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
'Cause I know you're worth it, you're worth it, you're worth it
Yeah...

[Verbal Acoustics]

Ladatadata ladatadatadadadatadada dadadadada *2

I guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say

If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I want to blow you--away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight?
If I could see what I want to see
I want to see you go down--on one knee
Marry me today
Guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say

These things I'll never Say...........

LALA.. B-I-M-B-O

haha.. but well.. who cares~

Tonight was a starry night.. lifted my head and surprised myself at the ultimate clear sky..

Impulse.. Hmm.. nice word.

Wadeva.. i sleep le~

The stars reminded me of you, and at that moment, my heart ached.. Every star represents one bit of me missing you.. and that adds up to alot you know~ =) We're a thousand stars apart, yet only linked by these thousand stars.. Hmm... No matter what, i miss you =D

2007-12-25T05:16:00.000-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS~~

Just came back from a christmas party at my ahma's house~~ Imba food and imba people~~ Love my cousins and relatives to bits!!!

Zhihui and Chengxun simply ROCKS!!!

I'm starting to believe, LOVE does exist in this world~~~

I love this photo~~

=)

2007-12-16T21:58:00.000-08:00

Its been a really long time since i last blogged...

Life's still busy.. as usual.. nothing much has changed.. living as though time does not exist.. haha..

At this very moment, i'm preparing christmas presents for my japan friends.. left with one last one.. hahaha.. as usual..

And somehow.. im feeling kinda melancholic.. again.. haha..

I guess the more i think of him, the more i miss him.. Its hard to believe that you can feel so much for someone so far away..

Its weird that it matters so much.. its saddening that the more i feel, the more painful it gets..

Probably a few years ago, I dun usually dream at night.. and usually the dreams i have turn out to be nightmares..

But these few months, i sometimes have unexpected surprises when i dream.. haha.... and this is getting addictive. I'm starting to like sleeping.. alot..

I miss you..

And its getting harder to write each letter.. cause its getting harder to put what i feel into words..

Maybe someday, i wont feel this way anymore.. (maybe.....)
Someday, we'll move on with life.. and at that time, we'll look back, remember the times when we would feel a tug on the heart whenever we hear our names... and smile.. then move on.

I never knew what it meant to wish for a time stop. Now i do.

あなたの手の温度を覚える。。考える時、本当に寂しいと思う。。
多分、時間は全部を忘れなります。。でも、今の私は。。あなたを会いたい。
あなたが大好きです。。

I love this song!!! hahaa...

All I want for Christmas is You ~ Mariah Carey

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is...
You

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I don't need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace
Santa Claus won't make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you
You baby

I won't ask for much this Christmas
I don't even wish for snow
I'm just gonna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe
I won't make a list and send it
To the North Pole for Saint Nick
I won't even stay awake to
Hear those magic reindeers click
'Cause I just want you here tonight
Holding on to me so tight
What more can I do
Baby all I want for Christmas is you
Ooh baby
All the lights are shining
So brightly everywhere
And the sound of children's
Laughter fills the air
And everyone is singing
I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa won't you bring me the one I really need
Won't you please bring my baby to me...

Oh I don't want a lot for Christmas
This is all I'm asking for
I just want to see my baby
Standing right outside my door
Oh I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for Christmas is...
You

Kk.. shall spam christmas songs when its nearer to christmas..

Now shall finish writing the letter~ =)

Lalala..

2007-12-03T06:02:00.000-08:00

ただいま～

じゃ、一週間は本当に短いだ。。今日、シンガポールへ帰ったとき、ちょっと寂しいと思います。。日本の友達は皆と感謝する。。

英語で

right.. so i'm home~

Not exactly very exhilarated to be home.. cause the whole trip was so much fun.. haha.. not only did i get to meet my jap friends, it was GREAT being around the whole group of really lame.. but really funny people.. =)

Somehow, i thought i was a little anti-social.. but well.. you guys were GREAT!~!!!

Even knew new people from a new school, waseda high school~~ haha.. yay!!

And the old friends were still as cool as usual~

Not forgetting the imba mr ngoh and ms yang!!!

in short.. it was a great trip..

lotsa stuff to say, but very tired now.. maybe some other time..

HCI drama camp tmr.. GANBATTE!!!!

LeeKoon loves Japan..
LeeKoon looks at photos and thinks of japan..
LeeKoon laughs at herself for a failed attempt at emoing..
LeeKoon signs out of msn conversation..

2007-11-24T07:44:00.000-08:00

13 minutes and one more day to Japan trip!!!!!!

I'm SOOO looking foward!!!

Trying to clear stuff before i go over.. including spending the whole of today recording a song.. and attempting to pack my bag (which ended up in.. just finding a decent luggage..)

SANE

Hai~~~

I love my life now.. =)

And i LOVE this song!!!

我和你啊存在一种危险关系
彼此挟持这另一部份的自己
本以为这完整了爱的定义
那就乖乖的守护着你

相爱变成猜忌怀疑的烂游戏
规则是要憋着呼吸越靠越近
但你的温柔是我唯一沉溺
你是爱我的就不怕有缝隙

在我心上用力的开一枪
让一切归零在这声巨响
如果爱是说什么都不能放
我不挣扎反正我也没差

人质在这一刻得到释放
相爱的纯粹落得如此下场
你满意吗我们都别说谎

=)

你永远也不会知道我有多想你。
尽管我已不再将你的存在放在心里，
但你仍然默默地决定我的一言一行。

2007-11-16T21:26:00.000-08:00

9 days!!! :)

finally down to a single digit!! :) I'm seriously super happy now..

Oh ya.. this is also conveniently a countdown to the return of the peepx who flew off ytd~ ^.^ Good good.. 26th is a good day =D

Yesterday's kbox was imba fun!! 4 people and i can sing until no voice.. this is IMBA.. Took photos but shant post lahx.. later tio zham~

Sending a bunch of pp who will be babck in 10 days is a super funny act.. but we had fun.. we definitely had fun! And that's all that matters la.. though some pp seriously look half dead and semi-conscious...

k la.. nxt up, JAPAN!!!
You have no idea how much i'm looking forward to Japan.. ^.^

Im praying hard i'll have free time to meet pp.. im serious.. i'll die if i dun meet my fwens de......... :'( Pueeesh? Nightmares about not seeing haruki..... Haix..

Still haven found a good handphone chain... someone recommend?
It's been a really long time since im so bothered over something.... haha.. guess having someone to be frustrated over is not such a bad thing afterall~~

我轻轻的尝一口
你说的爱我
还在回味你给过的温柔

我轻轻的尝一口
这香浓的诱惑
我喜欢的样子你都有

我轻轻的尝一口
你说的爱我
舍不得吃会微笑的糖果

我轻轻的尝一口
份量虽然不多
却将你的爱完全吸收

我微笑着让香味停留
缘份走到这也赖着不走
像夹心饼干中间有甜头
继续下去不需要理由

我给不起承诺。
再也承受不了离开你的心痛。

2007-11-11T06:00:00.000-08:00

:) Finally have the temptation to blog after so long..

lotsa events happened le.. so shall spam photos~~ :)

Cookie baking (quite long ago le lahx..) haha.. quite successful lohx!! we're zhai~ ;) too bad we forgot to take photo tgt...

Dont this look super delicious???!! =)

That's before you see the... scene of the aftermath.. >.< *guilty*

Haha... Another major event was the huang cheng outing~~ k lahx.. stayover cum bbq.. not too bad~ :) Lotsa photos from cy and sy at the cca blog.. lotsa unglam photos of me so... :'( NVM.. i only randomly took one:

Our cool daozhangs fiddling with the bbq pit.. :)
They're apparently having lotsa fun with arranging them in funny assortments..

k lah.. it was tiring.. but it was fun :)

Night walks (or cycles) are fun.. especially with the correct person.. ^.^ Long time since we last did this.. though we talked random stuff, not very intellectual (since when are we intellectual??!!), but it definitely made me feel more motivated to go about doing my stuff ba.. =P

Thanks..

=D

no matter what.. it was great~

Other than these occassional fun times, there's the almost daily tech and director lessons lohx.. :) but to be honest, the fun only comes after these lessons lahx.. when e daodus get tgt and talk crap.. haha..

convo contents are pretty rated.. most dun even make sense.. but they're motivations to move on too~ =D haha.. at least we have fun doing stuff tgt~~

Japan trip in 15 days.. i'm counting down...
Someone with good taste, help me choose a nice handphone chain can? Please...

2007-10-30T19:36:00.000-07:00

HCI Chinese Soc is having a DRAMA CAMP
Pls go check out and apply kx? It'll be fun, i promise!! ^.^ I'll be there wad~ ;) hahahax..

=) Go lah... there'll be lotsa fun stuff de.. ^.^ Promised to be an exciting experience.. go check it out k?

lala.. Andreas Vesalius will officially be out of my life by tomorrow afternoon.. i will officially kick him out of my darn computer and lock the folder called "PW" with a code even i dont know.. ^.^

Did a video on him.. uploaded on youtube for easy viewing.. wanna watch then jus click on the link below~ ^.^ It sucks pretty badly, but well.. not much i can do..

http://www.youtube.com/v/vgiqwUkkm68

I shall do InR after i finish with this post.. long time since i last blogged.. even inr cant stop me~ ;)

I'm suffering from a severe flu now.. and i suppose i'll sound horrible tmr.. >.< wadeva lahx.. though sneezing is a horrible activity, i'll have to bear with it.. NO WAY will i drag it for one more damn day.. i'd rather just get it over and done with...

Unless i simply cant say 3 words without sneezing.. :'(

FIR's new album is nice.. 爱歌姬.. Though its an obvious "Faye's the queen" kinda stuff, but the songs are pretty cool.. her voice is still as imba as usual, and the costumes are getting more and more interesting.. :) With the sweetest love song so far this year.. ^.^ Finally something worth remembering..

三个心愿 - FIR

沁:我喜欢你的眼神温柔又危险
请不要戴上眼镜我会看不见
想要张开双手把你宝贝
想和你天天见面
想带你环游世界

飞:我喜欢你爱逞强苯苯的笑脸
在心中抬头挺胸坚定的信念
这个辽阔世界不够完美
但有了你在我身边什么都很ok

副歌(合唱):
第一个心愿为你把幸福堆积
天涯到海角头发到呼吸
第二个心愿给你最好的自己
再许个心愿我的爱把你占领
哦~~~

沁:为什么为了小事就要掉眼泪
好象有太多的事只能自己背
其实只要你说一句ok
现在就立刻马上变成你的superman

飞:这世上最重要的不止是誓言
只要你常常记得亲亲我的脸
我会永远记得这个今天
还有很久的那一天我也要有你陪

下一个心愿给你最好的自己

Another new song from zhang shao han.. ^.^ nice nice..

不想懂得 - 张韶涵

当世界不知不觉的变了
有时候我怀念以前的我
作的梦虽然远远的
想像是一种快乐

拥有了同时也失去什黱
而眷恋原来会带来软弱
你让我在雾里成熟心开始曲折

我不想舍得不想懂得
是谁惹谁言不由衷
说谎伤害都是不安犯的错
怕抱不紧什么

我不想舍得不想懂得
谁说割爱才更深刻
彼此依赖是爱不是负荷
能握著手就是感动的

Super old song:

爱情复刻板 - 可米小子

老唱片听到一半突然有了灵感
整理之前的混乱爱原来不难
它存在太多虚幻终究是古老模样
原来你要的是那么单纯而简单

在雨天为你撑着伞
星期天陪你到海边踩踩沙滩

要给你最传统的浪漫
闪着烛光的晚餐
神奇的力量打开你平凡认真的心房

要给你最古老的幻想
扬起白色的风帆晒一晒久违的太阳
我的求爱复刻版不用包装
呵护你不会偷懒

无所谓老掉牙不需要时髦想法
没创意不需害怕真心看见了吗
山顶上公园的花卡片那句情话
真爱的表达还是热咖啡能催化

天黑了陪你走回家
清晨的信箱会看见我的鲜花

要给你最传统的浪漫
吹着晚风到天亮
原始的情感踏着稳定的步伐在成长

要给你最古老的幻想
在城堡的屋顶上晒一晒温暖的月光
我的求爱复刻版没有包装
给你复古的温暖

Spam lyrics.. .hahahax..

but seriously, these songs are NICE!!~~

DEFINITELY must go listen to FIR's song... e two of them super sweet..

k la.. its 11am.. i go do inr le.. =)

JIA YOU for OP!!!!

2007-10-25T06:20:00.001-07:00

明天就是今年学期的最后一天。。虽然未必是我今年到学校的最后一天，但仍然是有重大意义的。
因为我已经在高中生活了一个学年。

不知道怎么说，只是感觉不错。好像，自己终归还是要长大，总有一天会离开学生的身份，一步一步走向自己应该过的生活。认真思考，其实时间并不多。我希望为以后的我留下更多快乐的回忆，让我老的时候，可以想起现在的时光，然后欣慰地说：我这一辈子没有白活。

才一年，现在想到毕业当天，心里就有一点点的心痛了。。那明年不就完蛋？哈哈。。想太多了。人要活在现在，感受现在。。以后的事情，就让它慢慢自己发生吧。人生其实也没有我想象中那么复杂。十七岁的生命，经历过的种种，不过是人生中的一小部分。接下来，还会有更多，更恐怖的事情。而我也只能硬着头皮，勇敢面对。害怕，只是一个没有任何效应的情感。

可是我想，我还是胆小的。
今天就不多说了。心情有一点点沉重。也许过几天会好一些。:)

我发现，我越来越不了解很多人，包括我自己。
是幻觉吗？有一种被孤立的感觉。。

算了。。

:) Was motivated to write the apology letter thingy after reading the class blog. Came up with something really dumb.. but hope it suffices..

yay.. looking forward to saturday's kbox!!! ^.^ haha..
Yepx.. let's just all have fun for that day.. TOTALLY~~ =D

Counting down: 1month and 1day to japan..

2007-10-21T03:51:00.000-07:00

Cainan Wiebe as Vincent

Seamus Davey-Fitzpatrick as Damien

I swear these two shows are from the same series lahx.. haha.. they're freakin similar.. and the little boys.. OMG.. imba... I rate whisper 3.5/5... sama sama as omen.. haha.. but honestly.. the little boys are cute lahx~ =)

went to watch The Whisper ytd~~ After kboxing, which was after director lessons, which was after the morning tech lessons... :) k lahx.. Finally i found my life after slogging over the juben for the past week... and of course.. it was really really really a boost to my ultimate energy..

Was super happy ytd afternoon lo!!! =) Indulgence..

So i swore to finish op ppt and juben today~~

At this very present moment, (time check 1857) i'm working on the darn juben..

And my patience is running out..

Super paiseh i din go weilin's house, nor turn up for ruiying's bbq.. cos im seriously drowning in work.. i admit ytd was a little over-slacking.. but i needed ytd to keep me going for the next few days.. so... sorry..

Well... its only right i find a balance in my life right? Cant possibly really turn into someone who works all day and dies eventually sitting in front of a com..

If i die tmr, i'll just be glad i had yesterday.. cause i was really genuinely happy~ :)

^.^ Thankew~~!!

Please say you were joking...

Well.. if you aren't...

I'm sorry..

2007-10-17T07:09:00.000-07:00

Nice things happening to me nowadays~~ :)

Okay.. maybe e script aint going too well.. but.. i've got really cool pp arnd me.. that's all.. and that's all i need lahx~ ^.^

:) Nice people, doing nice things.. and making my life much nicer than it is supposed to be~

I can do it de. I promise~ :)

haha.. so sweet..

its cool knowing how people can be like when they're with people they're comfortable with..

guess they arent always comfy arnd me.. but well.. its fun being arnd them lahx~ ^.^

Yay~~ Let's cont working tgt k!!!! =)

we can do it de!!

2007-10-15T04:21:00.000-07:00

watched lust.caution ytd.. to be honest, its a disappointment.. was probably expecting too much from it.. in fact.. i thought it was kinda boring.. i suppose even more of the R21 scenes wouldnt have helped much either..

3 short snippets of R21s, boring, pointless and totally 0 concept. Tony Leung was still doing his usual underdog thing, so he was good as usual.. nothing special but still good. His eyes was... wow... Tangwei was.. well.. amateurish.. she could act and all, but there was still sth missing.. Compared to gongli and even zhangziyi in geisha, she was a noob..

and wanglihong's parts were too tiny for me to comment on.. but the last scene when he gave tangwei that "i love u alot, and i know we're all going to die.. but i still love you" kinda look, he did stir up sth in me.. its just that.. 2 seconds of being "touched" wasnt enough for me to have a good impression of this show..

the newyork critic was right.. it was 3 hrs of long, draggy and boring stuff.. okay.. this is too extreme.. but it was long.. and draggy.. There was little exploration of zhang ai ling's story.. the storyline was there.. it was just not fully explored.. zhang ai ling probably left the story ambiguous in the hope that there could be another person on earth who could fathom what she wanted.. lee ang probably wasnt the guy..

Read an article: Zhang Ai Ling was never a person out to drive her readers to tears.. she never ever thought it was necessary to cry.. in fact, she loved leaving her readers hanging and helpless..

Lee Ang, on the other hand, was a person who deliberately made Tony Leung fill up his beautiful eyes with tears, and made the last scene a cry-able scene.. too bad it was soo deliberate, i gave up trying to even make myself cry..

Even liang zhi qiang's I Not Stupid made me cry.. sorry Lee Ang..

Came home with a pretty "omg" thought.. went on to watch Memoirs of the Geisha instead and felt better.. At least there were shows in the world like geisha to make my trips to the cinemas worth it.. or at least.. make my time sitting in the cinema NOT a waste of time..

Haix..

Credit goes to the actors, for their brilliant (or their attempt to be brilliant) acting.. Credit goes to the wardrobe, and sounds, and even the set designer for re-creating the era..

Maybe we should credit Lee Ang for adding in the part when tangwei was singing.. it wasnt in the story.. but it was one part when i felt that maybe there was hope for the show..

Maybe we should credit him again, for destroying Zhang Ai Ling's story..
Quoted from an article: He fleshed out the story, but destroyed the very spirit the story was built upon.

Why the hell did he remove the last line from tony leung's character?? If there was that very line, i wouldnt have despised the show that much........

Another boring show i watched today was "Boku wa imouto ni koi wo suru". OMG.. i was so looking forward to this show lahx.. But well.. pathetic storyline.. Jun matsumoto acted well though.. a great change from hyd.. Haix.. too bad he had a bad script.. even kimi wa petto was better :(

What's wrong with all the shows nowadays? One more trashy show and im giving up on the film industry.........

Watch geisha.. every scene is a pleasure to the eyes.. every move from the actress is a work of art.. every line (even if its in a japanese slang) is music to the ears...

>.<

haha.. a surprise pop-up by jasmin, ys, sy, by and jw was "wah" for me lohx.. was drowning in pw, then they happily popped by to save me.. haha.. gave me this cute little cookie (for sl de) haha.. quite nice to eat lohz~~ (safe anot ahx.. HMM..) haha..

anw.. thx~ ^.^

OH ya... the love of my life jus went taiwan ytd... HAIX.. and pls bring my cam along ahx.. my love.. info for pw inside de loh... nvm.. cause i love u too much, jus bring my cam back safely can? ^.^ (like he can see this......) Dun die in the jungles.. and come back (with THE CAM) alive~~ haha~~

Went to check out a website called DeviantArt and found this cool picture.. its a nice website.. Its called Our Darkest Days..

Thinking alot nowadays.. Guess its the script...

K lahx.. that's an excuse..

But honestly, just think about it lahx.. there's nothing special about us as humans wad..

Okay, maybe we ARE different.. we have so many PnCs that we all turn out pretty much unique.. but.. that's the same for everything else wad..

So?

The concept of love is bugging me... Its getting irritating.. Now that i think of it.. I wonder if i've really felt love before..

Yepx.. at least i've felt family love... friendship kinda love... even the love for an inanimated stuff like e bottle my brother gave me..

But the REAL big "LOVE" concept is still a ??

It's a universal theme..

Geisha had love: Saiyuri's love for the chairman.. Nobu's love for Saiyuri..

Boku Imou had love: yori and iku loved each other.. forbidden, but still love..

Lust.Caustion had love: Tangwei's love for TonyLeung, WangLeeHom's love for TangWei.....

wadeva it is.. once there's a guy and a girl put together, 9/10 the storyline will contain love..

As the masterplot book says: Love is a universal theme.. a king needs a queen and a prince needs a princess.. The story is not half as appealing if the cliched love isnt brought in.. no matter how subtly..

So now.. what's LOVE?

HAHA..

Easy to answer...

Took a long time to ponder upon this question.. and came up with nothing..

Guess it takes more than intellect to understand this.

haha..

my sis said sth even more meaningful: Jus go try lahx.. then u know le.. *funny look* You think i know how to explain mehx? Like i got try before liddat.. You go get ur friend and love loh.. then u know le..

MUAHAHA.. i died-ed laughing..

my sis is freakin funny..

Good point...

So i went to ask my mom.. after her long day at work.. and she said sth like: Oh.. HMM... let me see.. Can't explain de.. Ask ur dad (who eventually told me to ask my mom again...)

HAHA..

I'm amused..

A good way to get my mind off PW.. ^.^

God damn pw.. 3416 words. WHAT THE HELL?!?!??!!

1000 more words to remove.. god bless me..

:) U're nuts...

2007-10-13T20:37:00.000-07:00

Listening to: Full House's OST

Haha... indulging in happiness now~~ ^.^

I swear i look like an idiot now.. but well.. haha.. i dun care~ :)

Cant even find a proper picture to describe my mood now, so gave up searching..

=)

Love.. what a profound concept.. haha..

Love is giving someone the ability to hurt you, but trusting him enough not to....
Love is not to find the perfect person, but to see an imperfect person perfectly...
Love does not depend on what he can give, but what i can feel when i'm near him...

hahahaha...

dumb quotes.. but its so freakin true~ =P

Love, is happiness.

^.^

Now that i think of it, its almost impossible to express love through words.. its like trying to describe how durian smells like... "Its abit smelly, abit nice, abit weird... but its durian.."

Weird analogy, but its true. I'm sorry I can't describe what love is. But i know what love is. Everyone does. Even those who claim they don't.

=)

Te Amo~~
Thanks alot. You're right.. i see the real me in you. Maybe that's all it takes.
No matter what, thanks.
Love is being stupid together...

2007-10-13T06:19:00.000-07:00

Believe me.. i'm staring at the teddy she's holding.. :)

Thx to those who helped out in open house!! haha.. Kinda weird thanking now, since its like 24hrs later.. but ytd really CMI le.. haha.. din even remember walking into my bed room.. =P

E open house was really quite okay~ :) think those friendly tour guides worked really hard lahx.. talk for SOO long loh!!

Im DEF gonna watch lust.caution tmr.. DIE DIE mus watch.. haha.. guess a 3 hr movie should be okay lahx.. :) will review it after i watch kx.. then u can imagine the 7min scene urself.. =)

Im addicted to our class blog song's music.. =)

random..

:) determined to finish the script today.. determination written on my face.. but fatigue writing all over too..

maybe i'll wake up early to do tmr instead..

write abit first~ :)

aunty evi was really happy today~~ :) So i guess everyone should be in a kinda happy mood~^.^

Let's all stay happy ba.. its the only way to make living more meaningful..

=) Glad u liked it~

2007-10-06T22:15:00.000-07:00

I'm IMBA!!!!!

Tell me im not man.. look at those delicious cookies!!! MUAHAHA~~~ It's totally an understatement.. i'm practically THE ONE!!!!

AND!!! Still got fish and fried rice... WAH... lk so pro!!!!

Of course.. i'm still a born napkin folder!!! hahaa.. ty and i managed to do these 2 little things that chef mc said was a COMPETITION WORK ehx~!! zhai anot zhai anot?!?!! hahaha~~

Think the candle also super cute~ ;) hahahax~~

lolx.. and we tried our best at fruits la.. we gave up halfway and started eating.. muahaha.. but well.. i cutted the watermelon.. so its still zhai~ ;)

PERFECT~~~~

lolx.. 2 days of sabbaticals, lots of slack time and weird activities like this: (making an art work using spices~~)

It's slack.. but its fun~ =) so proud of myself.. thankfully e team mates know how to crack eggs.. though they also get the shells in de!! (i thought i was the only one..) and the things actually taste GOOD lohx!!! maybe a tad too sweet, a little too not that perfect.. and its like ME? so well.. its the best i can get~~ haha~~

Nxt time im gonna make cookies as presents le! =D

Had a 8+ hour PW marathon ytd.. warhx.. sw's house is imba nice~~ with a poor dog stranded outside.. and lotsa super cool gadgets~!!! we were just piaing the wr, which is still uncompleted.. but it was good~ =) At least we did REALLY constructive stuff with the first few chapters~~ I guess we might have been too perfectionistical (?) lahx.. but well.. im glad we met yesterday~~

SO after piaing pw, OPEN HOUSE is next!!! MUAHAHA!! gotta do it well people!! =)

shux.. damn high now.. shall go out to buy oh stuff laterx~~~ ^.^

i suck at video editing.. SAVE MUAH..

will try harder later..

AND JUBEN!! WOAHX~~

i love the world~ =)

and im starting to like cooking~

2007-10-01T04:26:00.000-07:00

:)

Hail to the end of promos~ Marks the end of 2007 mugging.. hahax..

Also marks the start of lotsa stuff too~ =P

Bio paper was a born killer lahx... but went out on a really fun trip with florence, pengrong, weilun, joonwee, xiaowen, yusiang, yihong, tingyi n aaron~~ ^.^ it was farni.. haha.. watched the really retarded, random and farni Death at a Funeral.. not forgetting eating n walking arnd.. in short.. its damn fun.. ^.^

wah biang ehx.. the show is IMBA farni.. spam vulgarities lahx.. but still.. super amusing!!! MUST WATCH!!~ quite gross at some parts.. but i like the last little speech that guy made.. :) forgot how it felt like to burst out laughing at something le.. :P

though the gay part was.. erx.. hahah.. interesting~ ;)

haha.. now laxing liao lahx.. tmr's important mock spa shall be left for tomorrow~ =)

Hero - Mariah Carey

There's a hero
If you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid
Of what you are
There's an answer
If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know
Will melt away

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

It's a long road
When you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold
You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt
Will disappear

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone
Tear them away
Just hold on
There will be tomorrow
And in time
You'll find the way

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

Mariah Carey has a imba voice.. Not a single note out of tune.. not a single breath out of place.. everything's done to perfection....
hahahax.. like this song alot.. heard it eons ago, but only finally realize the meaning of it like.. just now? =P

Time to start doing stuff le~ ^.^

放手是对你最宽容的解脱
放手是对我最残酷的惩罚

2007-09-28T19:49:00.000-07:00

Tempted to change skin.. but too bad la.. not now~ :)

Yepx~

Promos almost over le~ ^.^ lolx.. some lucky pp *stares pointedly* finished le lo.. but well.. 1 more paper to go.. damn looking forward~ haha..

Just hope i dun nuah too much.. its hard to keep concentrating when you can see the end of it lahx~

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MmukW1sNlIk

Haha.. nice song with eragon clips.. seems farni to me.. :P

Keep Holding On~ Avril Lavigne

You're not alone
together we stand
i'll be by your side
you know i'll take your hand
when it gets cold
and it feels like the end
theres no place to go you know I wont give in
no I wont give in.

Keep holding on
'cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
just stay strong
cause you know i'm here for you, i'm here for you
theres nothing you can say, nothing you can do
theres no other way when it comes to the truth
so keep holding on
cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through.

So far away I wish you were here
before it's too late this could all disapear
before the doors close, this comes to an end
but with you by my side I will fight and defend i'll fight and defend yeah yeah.

Keep holding on
'cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
just stay strong
cause you know i'm here for you, i'm here for you
theres nothing you can say, nothing you can do
theres no other way when it comes to the truth
so keep holding on
cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through.

Hear me when I say, when I say
I believe nothings gonna change, nothings gonna change destiny
what ever is ment to be
will work out perfectly yeah yeah yeah yeah
lalalalalalala...

Keep holding on
'cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
just stay strong
cause you know i'm here for you, i'm here for you
theres nothing you can say, nothing you can do
theres no other way when it comes to the truth
so keep holding on
cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through.

Fatigue settling in.

Seems like i got it wrong all along.
Nothing stays the same... not for long.

2007-09-26T21:09:00.000-07:00

The IMBA moon on the 16th lunar august~ :)

Word from astrologists: The brightest moon of 2007 can be found at 3am, 17th of lunar august~ ^.^

:) Do lift ur head frm e thick stack of notes, and look up sometimes.. you might be pleasantly surprised~

Good luck~

2007-09-25T20:34:00.000-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bWQvOoXECHU

:) Nice song~ e mv abit weird.. but well.. since i like the song.. too bad~ :P (thx saki!!!)

Desperately wanted to do something constructive today.. but ended up nuahing my morning away.. and what added on to my desperation was the freakin fact that my GC died on me... >.<>

But well.. not in the mood to go to school today.. HMM...

. . .

See first.. at least now still can switch on.. din even get to switch it on ytd.. lolx..

time to figure out what to do after promos... seems like there's LITTLE to do ahx.. haha.. esp freaked out by my wr.. which happily found its way into my stack of math notes and messed up my plans for the day..

RARH..

haha.. realized japanese songs.. sound good.. but e mv always turns out weird..

wadeva.

2007-09-21T18:50:00.000-07:00

I swear im the only one still blogging and stuff.. hahax.. :)

Counting down.. 2more days to promos~

allowing myself a little more time to slack~ Tonight still got mid autumn festival celebrations.. hahax.. just went to check and realized today's only the 13th of lunar august.. HMM.. no wonder the moon abit round..

My graphic calculator is dying on me.. changed new batteries and still tell me battery running low.. damn pissed... I guess the last time i dropped it, it died or sth.. >.<>

5 more minutes.. that's all i'm allowing myself..

Now 4..

Jia You ba~~

我不管。

2007-09-19T18:10:00.000-07:00

Long time no post.. :) Mugging too hard for promos le.. Time to loosen up abit..

2 days study leave, courtesy of HCI~ Well.. honestly, i wouldnt have minded going to school.. seems like i happen to mug a little harder when i see people studying damn hard.. hahax.. but well.. hafta make good use of these 2 days.. if not.. GG..

The time when i could not bother about exams has long passed.. Face it man.. mugging is gonna be part of my life..

Reading other people's blog is a super enjoyable task.. realize how some people have sides that i never knew existed.. People i thought were seriously serious just turn out to have their own probs afterall..

Its weird to read about stuff u dunno what their talking about.. but its also nice to know what their talking about~~ haha.. super weird.. but i just read like 10 blogs? So randomly referring to random people..

I never knew them afterall.. i guess..

Its kinda sad knowing how little you know about other people.. :)

^.^ JIA YOU for promos!!!!!~~~~~

我喜欢读书。喜欢那种感觉，可以只专注看着书本，脑子里想的都是书本里的内容。。什么东西都不用想。:) 尽管写字手会痛，尽管要背东西脑会暴。。可是相信读书的我，是快乐的。

读完书，把书本闭上的时候，有种再次进入现实的感觉。

那个时候，就是梦醒的时候。

有什么事，到时再说吧。

2007-09-14T18:59:00.000-07:00

hahax.. jus realized i got into variety cooking for sabbaticals.. :P quite funny.. *imagines myself in an apron.....* =.= nightmarish..

k lahx.. shant crap le..

heavy rain over at bukit batok area.. seriously suspecting whether there's a wet weather plan for maf.. poor chang-e needs to seek shelter.. :'(

i love mooncakes~~ :)

random.

Jia You for promos... no joke ahx....... ^.^

I am nothing but a figment of my own imagination...
What's worse?
I am a non-existent shadow in a fragment of your pathetic life.

2007-09-10T02:11:00.000-07:00

=)

Happily got myself into hospital saturday midnight.. nah.. considered sunday morning lahx.. sent myself into emergency due to excessive throw ups .. ARGH.. wth...

Actually, when u're in the emergency ward, u feel like a noob.. cos everyone else around you is either bandaged, or bleeding profusely.. and you look totally uninjured......

With that thought in mind, i dozed off in the little room behind the nurse office..

Then a kind nurse came n gave me an injection.. i thought i once told myself i wudnt take an injection no matter what.. but well.. when you're in a groggy state of mind, and thinking of when you can finally drink water without throwing up.. an injection is seriously nothing... =P

so after a torturous 2 hours wait, i was finally diagnoised and sent home..

Okay.. so.. that's about all the adventure you could have when you have half dead..

Went home and realized it was about 5am in the morning le.. (SUNDAY morning 5am.....) slept through till sunday night 10pm, then woke up for a brief moment to concuss again.. so only officially got out of bed at 8am this morning.......

wth..

i bet im part of the bed already lahx..

was so worried it was dengue or sth.. jus glad im fine.. :)

Wanted to do constructive things today, but ended up sleeping at a rate of 30 minutes per 10 minutes awake.. so.. big use...

feel like a nuah-blet now....... >.<

gotta go sleep again.. i've been typing for more than 10 minutes now..

Hope can go to school tmr.. pls pon bio spa.. :'(

2007-09-07T04:08:00.000-07:00

Argh..

I never understand how some people think.. not in a bad way though.. if i know what everyone thinks, its seriously kinda scary.. But well.. i cant change your mind, so... ya.. no matter what, u'll still be around.. n jus in case you STILL dunno... i'll still be around for u lahx.. :)

HMM...

A few more days to promos.. n im started to feel a little uneasy abt it..

fast realization..

Jia you ba~ =)

You know, sometimes all it takes is just for you to take me seriously.. jus for once..

2007-09-02T06:30:00.000-07:00

Insanity is the word for human beings like me..

Jus came back from e coc camp.. alright.. it wasnt VERY VERY bad.. it just wasnt suitable for me..

started with the usual address.. and though i was trying to listen (which i eventually did for a while) we did bad stuff like chatting amongst ourselves.. (>.<) within that short span, i had a little collection of quite funny photos:

I swear im nuts.. did this in less than 1 min!! Oh manx.. im improving..
kx.. super sorry to jj.. :P but honestly.. its cool lohx..

kkkkx.. back to the camp..

honestly, my group rocks!! :) Lotsa really cool pp, like jessica, yuhang, fair yii n of cos e funny xiaobai~ =P e activities were.. er-hem.. but my grp was IMBA!!! they won like almost every game lax~~ N no joke.. our cheer is cool~ ;)

Went to sph halfway, then came back for campfire~~ wahx~~ we werent exactly listening to the perf.. but it was funny talking amongst ourselves~~ ^.^ I swear they're e funniest pp i've met~~!!! old folks do think funny nowadays.. ^.^

And oh man.. call me pro!! i learnt card magic tricks frm xiaobai~! =P And i swear im zhai (with sufficient practice.....) hahahax~~~

A super failed picture of the campfire~ :P

Then the nightwalk.. uneventful, no ghost tapping on shoulder, just a constant chit chat session~ :P the lightsticks were spoilers.. should have allowed pp to just fall down and stumble alongst on their own.. if not like kinder kids liddat~ =P But yuhang's zhai, so everyone came out alive~ ;)

then after the great escape, we arrived at macs!! =P kk.. i know its wrong.. and i shudnt publicize this.. but well.. its fun... >.< *guilty*
ended up behaving like delinquents but... WELL... *dots*

Then saw an imba shocking thing:

This is talk crap.. wth is this.. the person that did this ought to go shoot himself (hmm.. that's gender discrimination).. stunned us for quite a while.. >.<

okay.. slept at kap, then groggily played a few cards.. then go home le..

BUT BUT BUT!!! The instant i stepped home, i was freakin awake..

wtf.. its freakin painful lahx.. omg.. i swear its the coffee..

but well.. after attempting to read bio notes, i was effectively knocked out.. and fell asleep drooling on the organization notes.. hahahax..

had a very sad dream.. and the background music was "Our Story" by tension.. wah biang.. wonder if i cried.. or was it jus the rain that happily splashed through the windows where i was sleeping..

hahahax..

AHHH.. miss BAOBAO alot lehx.. sometimes have temptation to randomly call her, then realize she's not arnd.. hahax.. no one for me to exploit so that i can vent some frustration.. :P maybe two years from now, i wont be able to do that le lohx.. so mus start getting used now~~ =)

sph's dinner was okay lahx.. met pp i haven seen in a while.. so its still okay~ :) but i guess things have changed.. so.. yepx..

haha.. wonder if i'll meet my group pp arnd orchard next time.. then we can smile and wave at each other!!! hahahax. quite cool lohx.. a few more pp i can look out for when i walk arnd!!!! =D

I suppose the objective of the camp is half met ba.. at least we DID network and talked~ =D

NOW.. gotta mug hard le~~ =D lotsa stuff undone.. so gotta JIA YOU!!

EVERYONE.. JIA YOU BA!!! ^.^

Just a reminder to all 07S73 pp:

6th September 2007
Thursday
0830 - 1000 Biology Blk A, Level 2 classrooms (201 to 206)
1030 - hopefully 1200 Math A212
1430 - ? Chemistry A213

Please complete your tutorials:
Maclaurin's: Q2, 5, 9-13
Tutorial 9A: Q2, 4, 6, 9, 10
Math Test: T4W1 Tuesday

我们的故事 - Tension

在你左右还有多久
怎么样才能让时间倒流
每一分每一秒都珍重

握紧的手不愿放松
十点半的飞机它在等候
不要再让自己的眼泪流
我必须要走
要记得

我们的故事真难忘
有太多的回忆和希望
不管它有多疯狂
我愿意一生收藏

我们的故事不能忘
太多的情节要发展
不要放弃
因为有一天缘分会继续
一定会继续

现在2222，我理应去睡觉，可是好像有点睡不着
前几天，非常期待假期的到来。因为可以睡觉。
前两天的camp，来得很突然。可能因为忘了，所以有点不适应。
可是最终，还是okay，最起码我不讨厌。

今天霎那间发现自己的时间不多了。
过几个月，我就毕业了。
再过几年，我又会开始工作了。
然后，就结婚，就生小孩，就养小孩。。
最后，就会死掉。
很幼稚。因为我在想，我还有很多时间。
实际上，根本没有。

突然想变成乌龟。。
因为就可以慢吞吞地活很久。
有事情的时候，就缩进壳里面。
等事情过了，我再继续走我自己的路。
在想这件事的同时，我突然发现。。
乌龟，好像没有朋友哦。。

知道吗？我的MBTI test 是 ENFP。
我自己对自己的预测是ENTP。
知道这两个之间的矛盾多大吗？
Thinking and Feeling.
我竟然两个都是？
可是，我已经不会思考，也不会用心了。
怎么办？
这么一来，我不就死了？

昨天，我发现了一件事。
我已经没有心痛的感觉了！
=)
可是我也同时发现，
我也已经没有心跳了。

开始是难忘，结局是忘记。
这句话，是看了如果爱之后，觉得最有意义的一句话。
女主角选择忘记。男主角选择难忘。
最后，还是逃不开记忆的枷锁。
再狠心的人，最后还是会屈服于喜欢的人的温柔。

那个导演很可怜。
因为他没有选择，只能继续看着那两个人演戏。
就算知道了，也只能眼睁睁看着两个人继续欺骗。
没有人会记得他。
因为他只是戏里的配角，是他们感情的牺牲品。
看了，心情沉重。

心痛？哈哈。。
不会的。他最终会学会不去心痛。
他的心会死。戏如果继续演下去，他会离开，他会忘记。
然后在他心正式死亡的时候，就没事了。
他就正式离开了这个感情的舞台。

哈哈。。
很cheem..

2007-08-27T07:38:00.000-07:00

NOTICE　(before i start on my true blog post)

For all Open House people, please meet at the LEP room at 2pm on Wednesday for an important meeting (like its the first meeting?? =P) It wont't be long, but i desperately need everyone there~~ ^.^

Thanks loads~~

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Everyone is born with nothing. Don't ever forget that.

If you think your life sucks, think again. Maybe its time to think again. Everything you have around you is a gift.

If you think you just lost something, think harder.. maybe it was never yours in the first place..

So let's stop lamenting and move on with life~ :)

That's the theory i came up with on the bus the other day~

I got on the bus cursing.. cause i seriously was very very pissed.. (As usual..) so i was really upset about stuff.. and then i decided to shut e DJ off and switch to classical music instead..

Alright.. maybe not classical classical, but more of japanese soothing music.. hahax..

so ended up thinking alot more instead..

went to watch 881 the other day, and cried super badly.. especially when they sang the 一人一半 song.. i swear.. i never cried as much.. not even when watching 小孩不笨..and i swear i cried like shit when the guy said "我要用500块买你一个小时的时间" or something like that.. and i was like "WAHHHHH" OMG...

And the aunties around me all loved it~ ^.^

Then i went to watch 不能说的秘密today, and came out not crying, but feeling warm and fuzzy inside.. hahax.. alright.. it's quite 偶像剧ish, but well.. its rare seeing jay chou acting cute.. and when he does.. well.. =P

okay.. honestly opinions? no basis for comparisons.. both shows have their own super cool parts.. and i seriously love both of them alot..

kx.. that's all for film reviews today.. ripping chicago and perhaps love to watch this week.. hahax..

I swear i love local productions more.. ^.^

till nxt time..

2007-08-10T22:48:00.000-07:00

I guess my previous post sorta shocked some pp.. rly paiseh.. >.< but well.. part of me felt that maybe i shudnt have posted it.. but the other part of me felt that i shud have posted it earlier.. hahax.. maybe i wud have felt better earlier.. :P

Wadeva it is... thanks alot guys~~ =) (and gals.. :P)

its kinda late to blog abt this now.. seeing that its 2 days after ndp.. but well.. i went to see fireworks~~ got pretty sucky pictures cos i was in the wrong place (which i randomly went simply becos it was the only place im sure i wont get lost going to..)But well.. its was cool seeing the fireworks and listening to pp speaking in all sorts of dialect arnd you (including baby language..) a little kido was beside me and kept saying "mei mei" throughout.. hahax.. super cute..

went into e shopping mall beside esplanade (if i din rmbr wrongly its called marina square or sth....) so i happily took a picture of the crowd frm e upper level.. hahax.. while other pp r squeezing their life out.. >.<

im jus so glad im not in that thing.. :p

in short.. it was a pretty cool experience~ :P

yay.. when nxt week is over, i'll be a happy lk again~~ ^.^ I promise!! hahax..

ahx.. shall go do stuff le..

Cherio~

2007-08-07T06:24:00.000-07:00

很想杀人。

没有人能了解我现在心里在想什么了。这是我今天下的结论。

怎么可以在自己最需要一个了解我的人的时候，发现根本无法跟任何人说任何事情。

太可悲了。

今天走出了自己熟悉的戏剧中心，没有任何的感觉。只是。。哭了一下下。

很想找个人哭诉，可是又不知道要说什么。。结果什么都没有说。我以为只要我一直听到别人的声音，就能控制自己。可是当我挂上电话的时候，才发现自己有多孤独。。那个时候，是谁都控制不住的吧。。

突然很想念去年。。真的很想念。人要往前看，可是我最近却总是不由自主地往后瞄。以前的生活，真的令人向往。以前没有珍惜。。太可惜了。

现在，竟然无法忍受再待在那里。看着一个跟自己完全没有关系的东西，看着认识的人做自己不熟悉的东西。总觉得很像外星人到地球的感觉。不自在。坐立不安。真的。

真希望能回到以前。或者更好的。。让我忘记以前的一切。。那我就没有比较的权利，也就不会觉得现在这么难受了。

现在，我只需要一个不用我说话也能听到我想说什么的人。

真容易。

突然很想就这样从人间蒸发掉。从大家的生活中消失。。。

我想。。应该也不会有太大的影响吧。。

我的心很快就要死了。

我很快就要消失了。

很想杀人。或许那个人，就是我自己。

哈哈。

2007-08-04T22:21:00.000-07:00

Lolx.. suddenly saw this picture and died laughing..

realized how dumb u can be when u r in a dumb mood.. :P But they really look v funny. ;) [no offence]

finally a day when i nuah at home and attempt to finish work.. hahax..

wanted to go out.. but honestly.. i go out today, tmr GG le.. >.<

TADA~~ =) Im still living..

Ain't this exciting?? hahahax..WOOHOO!! =D

SANE..

im in love with school

shall attempt to do csc work soon.. >.< its piling up a little too fast..

dont i just love school? =D

well at least now i have a phone..

Oh ya.. my house is cursed.. guess what? my bro lost his phone last night too.. hell.. poor parents.. they seem pretty pissed.. hahax..

wth.. im in luck manx..

everyone stay clear away frm me.. im gonna pass my bad luck to everyone soon.. at this rate this is going..

im going to become some hermit soon..

oh ya.. meteor shower watching on tuesday.. hahax.. considering.. :P

其实人的想法跟情感都是一样的，只是在于自己怎样面对和处理而已。
与其说是自私，不如说是为自己着想；
与其说是无私，不如说是没有勇气面对自己决定所会带来的后果。

没错。为大局着想真的很难。
我也很想不管。可是这就能解决问题吗？
或许我曾经考虑过，可是我不会做的。
因为后果太复杂了，我没有那个勇气面对。

你有你想追寻的东西。
你的个性跟我完全不一样，所以我没有办法帮你。
可是最起码以朋友的立场，不管你怎样决定。
我支持你。

加油。

2007-08-02T06:28:00.000-07:00

Mood: RANDOM-ING

Haix.. plan to get phone today FAILED.. dad's flight got delayed till 10pm.. so gotta wait till tmr.. AND i dont even get to choose e phone.. hahax.. sane..

but well.. its my fault losing the damn phone.. so its my own responsibility to accept it and get on with life..

Accept it lahx.. hahax..

Chem tutorial due tmr.. and im blogging.. hahaha... dont i just love myself..

Tmr is another insane day.. go csc talk str after school (b4 sch ends in fact...) den go off for e nyjc film fest.. lols.. then go home and see wad phone they choose.. and hopefully fall in love with it at first sight.. =P

Today, i realized another inconvenient outcome of losing ur phone (other than the fact that you have to bear with parent's discontentment, be uncontactable, be NIAO-ED, be unable to store information, unable to entertain yourself with the radio, no more games, no more random typing stuff into notes page, no more...):

YOU HAVE TO WAIT!

you seriously have to develop ultimate patience lahx.. seriously.. and a seriously body sensitivity towards time (or get a watch)

float float float..

dont i just love life without a phone..

hermit.. :P

dear rach came back today~~ =) Tho i think e evaluation thing not v relavant to muah, but its still cool to have her back (AND attending CSC!!! OMG) just reminds me all abt last year lahx (pls still see e sponsor request letters that were never sent out ahx...) hahax..

nice fweeel~~ lala~~

its now 10.. i aim to finish my chem tutorial, read e bio website for alt ass, and do juben..

yay~~ im going to stay awake all night.. AGAIN!!! lalala~~

And i still haven touched harry potter.. >.< sianX.. my sis GOT to gimme soon..

tmr's zhai day.. e mass biochem day.. AHX.. i love it..

dont i just love myself?

Had a nightmare when i dozed off in chem lab today..
A very very bad nightmare..

i dreamt, i had a twin. another person who looks IDENTICAL to me.. maybe its just me.. but somehow.. e person looked too much like me for me to accept..

this person was walking around with me.. both of us were daoing each other.. then everyone started calling out to that person.. apparently.. i guess we both share the same name too..

then i shockingly realized no one realized me.. as in.. not like im NOT there.. but everyone's eyes just landed on me and left to turn to the other me..

Woahx.. scary..

i guess i jus dun like being like another person.. >.< living in someone's shadow is kinda sad..

Lately, the saddest news i heard was the fact that someone i knew got himself attached.. *nods* saddest news.. not that my life is realli happi or wad.. but seriously.. it was almost as though he just officially handcuffed himself to another human being.. smart choice..

irregardless.. hopes he has fun.. some people just love living in captivity..

wadeva.. i sound damn skeptical..

2007-08-01T08:00:00.000-07:00

i once again did e most imba thing... everyone will just die laughing..

i took another wrong bus.. HOME..

wth..

just when i thought i was smart enough to take 173...... i ended up in clementi lohx.. >.<

omg..

smart lahx~~ :P

nvm.. at least now i know 173's whole bus route.. lolx..

sane.. 9pm at toh tuck ave.. scary bus ride..

k.. that's abt all..

2007-07-31T06:26:00.000-07:00

A world cut off from the rest of the world.. Hmm..

Surprisingly, tho a lil inconvenient, a little lost a times, a little passive.... but im liking it.. =)

Im getting too sentimental for my own good.. actually teared a little reading blogs and listening to songs.. how sane can i get??? >.<

You - 倖田來未

白い息が　冬を告げる
キミの街にはもう　雪が降ってる
遠く遠く　感じるのは
距離なんかじゃなく　心が思う

二人の願いはいつからかずっと
私だけのものになり
それでも一緒に　居たいのはきっと
弱さなんかじゃないよね

君と見る　この景色が
あるならば何もいらない
君がいない　この景色は
雪の中で見る　止まった世界

あんなにもそう　あの時には
ここにしか幸せ　ないと思った
人は誰でも　愛した人を
忘れまた他の人を愛せるの？

もともと合わない　二人がこうして
一つになってたけど
お互い歩み寄る　些細な努力を
それが出来なかったんだね

君と見る　この景色が
あるならば何もいらない
君がいない　この景色は
雪の中で見る　止まった世界

逢いたいよ　逢いたい君に
これからも　忘れられない
この雪と　共に散った
儚い想いを　胸に抱いて

会わないから、寂しい。次会った時、私もう覚える？夢にならなったほしいいね。。がんばれ。

I guess not alot of pp know jap.. which is good.. :)
But its a nice song.. lolx.. at least the lyrics are simple for me to sing along without the hiragana~ ;)

Brought back to reality harshly today, when i realized how lagged i am in work.. very very much far behind honestly.. its like so damn lots.. and im still not in the "i wanna buck up" mood yet.. at least.. not these few days.. jus wanna slowly pick up as time passes.. which is kinda bad.. >.<

but well.. i dun care.. at least not now..
i honestly dont care alot about alot of stuff now..
doing the going with the feel and flow of stuff thing now.. which sucks.. cause it just means im gonna screw stuff up..

insiders news: i either scraped a pass, or failed my latest chem test.. lolx.. sane.. u shud see msbobillier's face when she heard that i din touch my notes (:o) Yo lady.. welcome to reality..

regardless of how much i know i din prepare.. it still sucks to know u just screwed stuff up.. hahahahaha... now in zhai mood.....

kk.. reality check.. i'll start studying soon.. i hope..

no more emo stuff going on.. get a life gal~ ^.^ All forms of going out of home shall be for work and study.. SANE..

Lifeful..

i'll get the script out this week... i hope.. then at least wont die too badly..

then finish my tutorials (soon) while trying to catch up on lagged lectures (that i know nuts about). then finish stuff im supposed to complete months ago.. then settle ALL the crap alternative assessment things that i know nuts about too..

Hmmm..

Aint i alive? ;)

My heart cant take my shocks anymore..

原来我从来没有了解过你。哈哈。
我永远只是一个局外人罢了~

曾经有一段时间，我认真地思考过自己在别人生命中的价值
仔细的评估后，得出了简单却令人心寒的结论
原来我一点价值也没有

这个世界少了任何一个人，仍然会继续运作
没有一个人少了另一个人会死掉的
爱情故事是拿来骗无知少女的

我在别人的生活里留下的足迹
是什么？

没有我，生活根本没有任何改变。。对吧？

或许这样，
如果真有那么一天，我要悄悄离开，
会容易很多吧~

哈哈~

2007-07-09T07:31:00.000-07:00

A million and one reasons to cry...

Its now 12:28, and yesterday, at approximately this time, i cried my eyes out..

Sending friends off; this seems so easy, yet once you start crying, you just cant stop.. One whole day of saying goodbyes.. one whole day of that dreadful feeling in your heart telling you how much you dont want them to leave..

Sometimes goodbye though it hurts is the only way now for you and me

Thanks for everything.. really.. this is really for everyone.. APYLS'07 would have been nothing without anyone of you.. it's amazing how destiny brings us together.. No one would ever imagine meeting someone from the other end of the world.. maybe we could have met each other twenty million times on the streets.. but because of APYLS, meeting you on the streets again will never be the same..

This morning, i woke up with a severe headache.. my head was throbbing, my body was aching, and i simply couldn't get out of bed.. I looked arnd to see my own room, and for some reason, i closed my eyes and went back to sleep again.. I love my home.. i definitely do.. but it seems too much like a dream.. like i just woke up from a APYLS dream, that everyone was dreamt up by myself..

Maybe everything was just a figment of my imagination.. Tomorrow i'll be going to school.. going back to school and starting life afresh.. Other than the fact that i am indeed aware of the urgency to finish unfinished late work, i dont see any difference between tomorrow and the monday two weeks back..

Maybe.. just maybe.. a group of us just had the same dream..

These two weeks were terrific.. the times i spent with the delegates really made my life so much happier than usual.. maybe the lack of sleep part is pretty severe.. maybe i dont really like working alot.. maybe i may get irritable and snap at someone.. but when i hear saki saying "im not good at writing letters, so i only wrote for you", i couldnt help it but cry..

Its all in good fun i guess~ =) Yuhi's supposed confession, Saki's constant "i really love you alot!!", Linan's almost always "xie xie", Tim's "i dont realli like her you know..", Makoto's "wakatta wakatta", Kaushik's violent smack on my back (and nose), Sarvesh's "im fine.. im really fine"...

Everyone.. i just cant name everyone.. but everyone made a difference to my life.. i really love all of them.. and the singaporeans are really super duper great too!! =D Maybe we werent exactly nicest to them (cause they honestly know their way arnd) but we really love them too!! and thanks to yansheng for his touching speech at the airport.. it simply added to the flood of tears~ :P

Time flies.. 2 weeks ago, i was helping everyone bring their luggages up to their room, sorting out the various faces and finding everyone in the handbook unfamiliar.. 2 weeks later, im helping everyone bring their luggages down, hugging them as they walk into the departure hall, and fighting back tears to not let them worry..

Amazing.. its just amazing..

we'll keep in touch.. and we'll still be together somehow.. as long as they dont forget me, i'm sure apyls'07 will continue to live on.. just as a little memory we'll stash at the corner of our hearts..

And of course.. sending the japanese off just pains me.. reminds me of ayls'06 of course.. reminds me of the sweetest memories i have, yet at the same time, reminding myself of how difficult it is to get it back again..

=)

Well.. let's just see.. maybe someday, we'll meet again. And i can greet you with a smile on my face, saying "welcome back", and give you that hug that i so want to give now~~ =)

Thanks alot, APYLS..

I love you guys.. =D

Life must go on.. and as APYLS'07 comes to an end, i've gotta drain my tears and start life afresh.. School starts, life goes on, friends come and go, and i'll continue to move on!!!

Unfortunately, this is marked by the happy disappearance of my dearest handphone..

This is like so cham.. >.< like wth.. was on the train, then the handphone committed suicide from my pocket, landing on the floor just as the mrt door closes.. i sensed something missing, but well.. too late.. a dear phone just disappeared like this..

combo-ed by the emotional feel i had like 30 minutes ago, i was like damn freakin lost.. hope some nice guy just picks it up and sends it to the mrt.. pls pls pls.. just let me find it..

it isnt just about the phone.. its the information i have in it.. all the dates i have to take note of.. wah liao.. i'll die without it de.. >.<

but ive terminated it, so if you think im daoing your sms, i'm really super duper sorry, but send me an email or sth.. or just find me in school.. cause i really cant be contacted anymore.. :(

I'll get my new simcard within the nxt few days anyway.. hopefully..

Came home and collapsed on bed (in my jeans and everything...) and concussed all the way till 1pm.. woke up momentarily, head throbbing and muscles aching, sat up with a spinning head, tried standing but fell, heard my sister saying something about lunch, then fell into coma again.. the nxt time i opened my eyes, it was 6.. Along the way, had a vague impression my cousin popped by, but i guess i was far too lost to say hi.. :(

Im damn dead...

just finished my eom, now gonna try studying for the stupid chem test.. (Thanks ahz..) Probably not sleeping tonight (after the imba long hour ytd?)

Im guessing that yang doesnt read blogs.. if not im so dead.. but well.. YANG SUCKS! He seriously SUCKS damn shitly big lahx!! Omg.. im damn vulgar.. but well.. guess what? He cornered me at the boarding school the other day, and happily said "你的名字怎么写啊？我已经把你的名字印在节目单上了，所以，王鼎昌妈妈的角色你演了哦！" WTF!!!! Crazy shit lahz.. he just said that, and started rattling on about monday's rehearsal.. so i tried as diplomatically as i could (without any F words) to tell him im not interested, and i end school at 4, will be very tired etc.. and he happily told me that rehearsals end at 6 so he can still meet me.. :(

like.. knn lahx! OMG.. im so damn freakin dead.. he also happily said he'll take measurements for me tmr!!!!!!!! WAH LAOZ!!!

Aint my life cool?

And im gonna be honest about this.. im not ready to hand in the juben tmr.. regardless of how much i'll be killed, i'm really sorry but i havent done much these 2 weeks judging by the fact that i dont sleep much, work alot, and emotionally unbalanced.. i know this is bad.. but im definitely not going to meet the deadline tmr..

So im dead.. See? Im so dead..

Chem test tmr.. and im totally not in the mood to study..

heck. i go le. no time. study. juben.

tartar..

S CLUB - Say Goodbye
In the years to come
Will you think about these moments that we shared
In the years to come
Are you gonna think it over
And how we lived each day with no regrets
Nothing lasts forever though we want it to
The road ahead holds different dreams for me and you

Sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts is the only way now for you and me
Though its the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Cause true love never dies

In a year from now
Maybe there'll be things we'll wish we'll never said
In a year from now
Maybe we'll see each other, stnding on the same street corner though it rains
Each and every end is always written in the stars
If only i could stop the World i'd make this last

Sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts is the only way now for you and me
And its the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
Cause true love never dies

And when you need my arms to run into
I'll come for you
Nothing will ever change the way i feel

Sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye though it hurts is the only way now for you and me
And its the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
Because a true love never dies

2007-06-29T08:33:00.000-07:00

Nvr thought i could be so relieved sth's over~~ ^.^ And now im honestly nvr going to hold another pen for a long long time..

Seriously, sitting down and writing continuously in CHINESE for 2+ hrs is no joke lahz!!! lolx.. i write until hand cramped.. but god bless my kind soul for i managed to spot some qns~~ =) Last min mugging DOES help~ ;)

The past few days have been HAVOC.. studying and sleepless nights for one dumb test.. and a few more to come b4 a levels.. haix.. can imagine nxt yr a levels, i'll live on sleeping pills and coffee combo.. or maybe red bull.. >.< One bio paper can make me sleep 3 hrs onli.. means im a dead human being..

I always imagined the first thing after a major exam to be full of corny stuff.. like jumping arnd at westmall, go watch surf's up (or shrek X) or simply going to the arcade to whack some daytona.. but hell no.. first thing i did today was to hold a record breaking (according to yicheng) 4hr mtg sorting out stuff.. of cos, at least the funny pizza dinner made sense~ ^.^ its a weird weird day.. funny, stressed, hand-cramping moments all in 24 hrs..

And guys hold umbrellas.. i nvr knew that.. hahaha~~~

And guess what.. came home to find my parents home-karaokeing in their room to hokkien songs.. hahahax... damn farni.. i was bathing and their voice just kept ringing.. and i love it~ ^.^ hahax~~ shall consider going kbox with them someday~ maybe can pick up some canto pop~ :P

Tried to write sth and ended up wincing in pain.. my third finger knuckles are paralysed.. hahax..

Then went on to update the APYLS resource package, which i did in 1 hr.. followed by a continuous surfing of blogs~~ hahax.. everyone's happy~ Hope the class outing thingy works~~ it'd be fun relaxing on youth day with youths~ hahax..

Going sph tmr.. have qiangmai finals~~ ^.^ It'll be cool~ Cant wait~~ hahax.. yaya~~~ Finally have the mood for funni stuff le~~ Xiaban's on sunday.. ^.^ Finally can get to meet everyone after a good long break.. :P

歌谣's coming up in august.. shall post more details when more are out~~ ^.^ hahax.. its important lohz!!! ^.^ must show ur support kz~~! ^.^

Go to this site: anything.com.sg

A Singapore invention, for the indecisive Singaporeans..
Took a picture of a can of it, now lying in my phone n refusing to load into the com.. its damn cute.. lolx.. dunno if its a new product or wad.. but i was out with my family a few days ago, eating a nice meal of curry fish head and lemon chicken, then my darlin sister's sharp eyes spotted that little can of thingy at the stall and decided to buy it.. it comes with a fwen, called wadeva..
Sometimes, i just dont know how Singaporeans think.. hahax..
But I guess the chinese name for this is called "随便".
And it's real name is called "Anything LA"..
lolx..damn amused..

Ultimate Singaporean..

The idea's cool.. my sis loves the drink now.. but somehow, i just cant bring myself to drink anything.. >.<

hahax.. ended up drinking beer tho.. :P

Its now near 12, and im still in the mood to blog.. ^.^

Shant lahz.. wanna go play tmr de~~ hahax.. sleep sleep ba~~

Hail the end of BLOCKS~!!!!
And Hail to the POWER of Last Min Mugging (LMM)

=.=

Important note: I love umbrellas.. i sincerely do.. i just dont like to bring them around~~ ;)

Hugs and kisses~~

NITEX~~

2007-06-22T02:48:00.000-07:00

Alright.. ytd's post sucks.. seriously sucks big time.. hahax.. but i did it in 2 min, wad to expect? :P

More on full frontal? Hmm.. okay.. actually, Tan Tarn How's "Machine" is really honestly very impressive.. as in.. hu would have thought of a script like this? Seriously.. Though its quite disturbing.. its still a good script.. and its up to everybody's interpretation what this reflects.. maybe the pent up emotions in modern day people.. maybe just the life of 2 people (not exactly normal...)

I dunno...

Machine Synopsis:
A strange tale of two men Rex and Heng who one day turn up at the home of listless friends Lina and Kim. The men claim to be appliance repairmen, though they don't always behave like the real thing, and proceed to fix their washing machine. Half encouraged by the girls, half imposing their own way, Rex and Heng stay on for longer than seemed necessary to change the tumbler motor.

Love-sex-romance happens, need-want-desire is pursued. But in these times can satisfaction be met, much less guaranteed? A chillingly unsentimental exploration of the foursome's strange, out-of-this-world relationships that give no allowances to the pieties of life.

Above all, Full frontal is a good theatre production..

Okay.. So back to yesterday.. lolx.. went out to celebrate xy's bdae~~ =) And did lots of stupid stuff (like 42 plates of sakae? >.<) but yepx.. it was darn fun~ ^.^ At least i had a very good break frm my stressed state of mind.. =)

Went sourcing for her pressie and e cake with yy at taka, then ATE e imba no. of plates of sakae, then ATE like half the cake, then went kboxing~~ ^.^ lolx.. typical, but its been a long time since i last had so much fun~

in total, we sang almost 5 hrs of kbox..
its darn stupid.. 3 people sang for 2 hrs K student; then we left kbox, CAME BACK and sang another about 3 hrs of the second period of K student.. SIAO~!!! Imagine the imba amt of money we donated to kbox..

u wont believe how crazy we are lahz.. hahax.. its imba mad.. :P sang lots and lots of songs until today my voice abit not hoarse ah.. hahax.. but i now im convinced i LOVE kbox alot.. (not that i dont like it b4 but.. yepx..)

then went on to take a 1.5 hr mrt ride home, which landed me home at 12am.. SANE..

Alright.. maybe all these arent the craziest things ive done (recall 06...) but its been a long long long time since ive done these lahz.. almost half a yr actually.. its like.. the last time i actually went kboxing, watching movie with fwens, staying out till 12 plus (k.. this one is quite common), and splurging my money away.... its quite a long long time le.. >.<

Different people, doing the same thing on a less meng extent.. HMM... feels funny somehow..

But i hafta admit.. i really thoroughly enjoyed the crazy things i did ytd.. ^.^

Jus some pics so they can rip~ ^.^

the poor cake that we didnt finish.. >.<

The BDAE gal~~ ^.^

=)

Hmm.. so after ytd's havoc-ish/ imba-ish day, ive finally made my last resolutions to stay home and mug.. and not eat any form of rice for the nxt few days..

out of the two resolutions, i only managed to accomplish one.. which is kinda pathetic..

Woke up at almost 11, then suddenly my dad and sis were super duper excited about watching shows.. so (reluctantly/ relieved-ly) went out today with my little sis to go watch nancy drew.. hahaha.. quite a farni show.. randomly agreed to watch it after reading a review abt it this morning in straits times.. :P and honestly, its just a super duper simplified cartoonized version of a simple detective story.. the only person i had an impression of was Ned and NancyDrew (DUH) yahz.. a short 100 min film, suitable for people of age 7 to 15.. i think i abt too old for it le.. lolx..

And i super shocked at her dress sense.. nvm.. >.<

Not suitable for people who have watched da vinci code or any other higher order detective mystery stories.. you might find the show over simplified and retarded, missing out on lots of details and simple too simple for complicated human brains..

But it might be suitable for people who HAVE watched da vinci code but seeking a less complicated plot and asking for a mind-break frm over stressed societal pressue.. its like watching cartoons.. except with real life humans doing the show (sounds like teletubbies.. nvm..)

AND ive gotta warn all: westmall library is the least conducive place for studying.. wah biang.. went there, no seats, full of running and screaming kids, a weird librarian and.. in short, the suckiest place.. u could attempt going there to get a feel of a childcare centre with no teacher in charge.. >.< Haix.. nvm..

HMM...

shud be studying.. and will be studying.. Jia You ba.. sure can finish de.. ^.^

i wanna study de... just not in the mood mahz..

And the moral of the story is: study so hard now for wad? key thing is promos.. :P

So.. laxing lahz..

Ahh~~ really in a very good mood now~ =D havent smiled retardedly like this to myself for a long long time le.. waking up in the mornings, lazing for that extra few minutes in bed and thinking that life might not be as bad as you think it is.. lolx.. its a nice feeling.. =)

^.^ Happy days usually dont last long, so must enjoy every moment of it de~ lolx..

已经看清楚很多东西了，也开始可以100%专心读书了。。这是好事~ 也该是时候了吧。。 =)

I've learned that if you want to cheer yourself up,
you should try cheering someone else up.

I've learned that silent company is often more healing
than words of advice.

I've learned that if someone says something unkind about me,
I must live so that no one will believe it.

I've learned that there are people who love you dearly
but just don't know how to show it.

I've learned that you can make some one's day
by simply sending them a little note.

I've learned that the greater a person's sense of guilt,
the greater his or her need to cast blame on others.

I've learned that if you pursue happiness, it will elude you.
But if you focus on your family, the needs of others,
your work, meeting new people, and doing the very best you can,
happiness will find you.

I've learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone.
People love that human touch -
holding hands, a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back.

I've learned that I still have a lot to learn.

2007-06-20T20:17:00.000-07:00

=) to commemorate the closure of our "vacation"

vacation big.. lolx..

now 1118, i intending to go out by 12, which means i need to get myself prepared in 40 min and im still blogging.. lolx..

watched full frontal on tues.. went to read up on "machine" and "xiaobaichuan" and realized i'd better read up on shows BEFORE going to the show itself.. would have more insights..

But well.. i like machine alot.. xiaobaichuan.. hmm.. subjective. The dialogue session was.. >.< Singaporeans cant speak, that's all i can say. And the whole main idea diverted to the surtitles instead... which seriously.. haix.. i've attended another such dialogue sessions with a group of people hu came frm overseas, and they are MENG..

so well.. i'll learn to talk m ore nxt time..

i really gotta go get changed..

bb~

BLOCKS MUGGING PERIOD... Initial Stage..

2007-06-14T06:12:00.000-07:00

Just realized BLOCKS is seriously around the corner le.. omg omg omg.. im dead dead dead.. 4 days and ive covered NOTHING?!?! SIAOZ!~!!

im a paranoid freak.. and guess what.. 10 more days onli lehz.. SANE..

has been busy with the juben for the past 2 days, then prior to that still recovering from post-fraser-sleep in till 8- sleep at 9 life, so ended up nuahing and re-watching tokyo juliet.. OMG!!

k lahz.. these few days had been happy slack days.. =)
BUT that all ended this morning, when i stepped into school..

our juben's quite okay le.. at least.. yang didnt scowl too badly at it.. he just looked pretty amused.. lolx.. k lahz.. lucky we din say the idea of the old guy's foot in the rubbish bag.. i think yang wud have fainted.. =P

Back to the topic.. SANITY.. our school is radiating with the mugging aura lahz!! siao siao siao.. step into photocopying shop and the first thought that popped into my mind was: Poor J2s.. siao lahz.. stacks and stacks of past year papers (costing a bomb of cos) lined up happily against the wall smiling at my entrance saying "buy me for a1"

i tio shocked..

got back to lep room and saw pp mugging like nvr b4.. woah biang ehz.. speechless liaox..

and then i saw the urgency to mug..

so this morning started flipping out my chem notes, and realized i know nuts about reaction kinetics and chemical energetics.. and realized how much time i've been spending in chem lectures drawing and writing random stuff.. im so freakin dead..

so in order to console myself, i gave up and went to do apyls stuff.. which ended up quite okay.. but didnt help me much in my progress either.. hell.. i seem to be happy doing ANYTHING unrelated to studies.. even writing juben!!! this is sane..

its now 9.18.. i intend to stay up till at least 10 (hopefully 10.30) to get through abit of chem.. then sleep well and mug whole day tmr!!! *determined loook*

Recall: I said that to myself ytd..

HECK lahz!

jia you jia you!!

i'll do bio soon.. the stack looks scary.. >.<

AND we'll all pass our blocks well de!!! ^.^ 加油吧！

Oh.. but b4 i forget,

Happy Birthday YICHENG!~~ =)

今天差一点点就哭了
是在坐巴士回家的时候
哈哈。。大概是不习惯搭巴士吧。。太蠢了！

幸好前面坐着两个学生
讲话很大声，distract我
哈哈。。要不然我一定暴。。=P

我很少搭巴士，真的很少
少得连我自己都觉得奇怪
不过每一次搭巴士的经验
我几乎都能微微记得

哈哈。。
特别是跟特别的人的时候
最难忘

能有人愿意和自己搭巴士是一件幸福的事

跟自己喜欢的人搭
可以两个人肩并肩坐在巴士上
说着没有link的白痴话题
总希望能和他一起一直这样坐着聊下去

一时冲动搭的巴士很可怕
突然哭着想见一个人
没有确定那个巴士通往哪里，在哪里下车
就冲上去
最后坐过头，迷路了
还不敢打给那个人求救
最后问了另一个朋友
要过expressway才能搭巴士回去

晚上的巴士最恐怖
我最怕的两件事同时发生:我怕黑，怕巴士
有人愿意陪你搭巴士回家
跟你聊天解闷
最后自己可怜地用走的回家
是一件很可爱的事情

我是一个巴士白痴。俗称的路痴。我容易搭错巴士，更容易搭对巴士之后下错站。
没有人会相信像我这样的人也会有害怕的东西。
可是搭巴士就是我最大的恐惧之一。

我怕打雷，怕闪电，怕黑，怕昆虫（除了蚂蚁以外），怕被骂，怕被dao，怕考试，怕电话没电，怕搭巴士，怕误解别人，怕被人误解，怕失望，怕正式的讨论，怕痒，怕哭，怕鬼，怕看鬼片
。。

总之，什么鬼都怕就对了。

知道我为什么怕黑吗？
因为我怕鬼。我最怕一个人在黑漆漆的地方，什么都看不到。
鬼很喜欢黑暗的地方，喜欢一个人的人。
我看过Sixth Sense,那小孩被关进那个橱柜里的时候，我哭了。
我真的吓哭了。
如果是我，我会死掉的。

世界上最恐怖的场景：
我一个人，黑暗，有鬼。

现在想想，失去视力的人，真的很害怕吧。

我真的有够random的了。

2007-06-13T01:33:00.000-07:00

人是矛盾的
在追求自己渴望的东西时
可能会迷失方向
成为连自己都不认识的人

满足？
人类永远得不到满足。
为什么人总是要追求得不到的东西？
难道能够轻易拥有的都毫无价值吗？

追求一个不可能的东西就可以快乐吗？
得到了就一定能满足吗?

渴望达到目标没有错
但当发现和原本想象的有差异时
应该放弃，还是坚持下去？

爱上了，疯狂地追求了，失败了，
就应该放弃吗？

HMM...要写剧本，结果写了一堆垃圾。。
哈哈。。
写了超久，结果还是写不出个所以然。
即将发疯了。
哈哈。。

早上一起床，就开始读书，结果什么都没有完成。
下午，开始想写剧本，结果搞到现在4.35，什么鬼都没写。
明天要集体写剧本
靠。。
真想骂粗话。。

算了。。
心情烂到谷底。
希望星期六能开心一点。。

明天将会是我极度不爽的一天。
不要惹我。。
>.<

Pictures from fraser island can be found here:
http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2091114308

Not the full collection though.. some just cant get uploaded.. SIANX..

Home Sweet Home?

2007-06-10T22:38:00.000-07:00

Waiting for my photos to be uploaded into the com.. And apparently, im not one with patience.. lolx.. and worse still.. photobucket not working for me.. >.< I'll try again tonight ba.. lolx..

Finally home le.. 2 weeks, 14 days.. with 17 other pp frm S'pore, spending time in an Australian countryside, enjoying the beach, sea breeze, sand, water, stars.. Going home to a house with a lake as its backyard, a swimming pool, a loving family of 4 and a constant supply of cartoon shows.. and with a friend that truly cares..

Going on a boat, sailing into a sea with no boundaries, with a bunch of people full of joyful laughter, endless lame jokes and unexpected encounters (Slippers Mayhem). Teasing people i know are meant not to be, and sharing heartfelt thoughts about those that are.. the rain came, but it fueled our fun.. not forgetting swimming in a lake pure clean..

Witnessing love between friends.. never knew that things will turn out like this, but im really glad it did.. =) For some reason, i'm just glad i went. ^.^

The last BSP trip for us.. never again will i get to go overseas like this with this bunch of people.. things will change and life will move on.. but i'll forever remember the times we had when we were together~ lolx..

Paiseh.. in quite a weird mood now.. woke up at 6am n it felt like it was 8 already.. the sun was down, but i can vaguely imagine the sunrise then.. hahax.. im crazy.. and darn tired.. =P

Some friendships just dont make sense.. hahaxx... And modern people are starting to get confused abt their gender too~~~~~~ HAHA.. But yepx.. i love the feeling when talking to you guys.. woahz.. almost 5 hrs of talk lehz.. dun pray pray.. hahhahaxx but yepx.. im glad to hv known u guys lahz~ ^.^

もどかしい[Modokashii]
歯がゆい[Hagayui]
"It means something like this: there is an apple on a transparent shelf and I can see it very clearly, I want to get it, but the height of the shelf is about 250cm, so I ever can't get it nor touch nor taste it."
Trapped forever in a situation like this.. when i can only ever imagine what we went through.. and never go through it again.. >.< How torturous~

But its time to move on~ :)

"Appreciate things, but dont be emotionally attached to it" hahaxx quoted frm the only friend that i can truly be honest with~ alright.. not TRULY.. but you got as far as any human ever got~ =P
And that statement left a very deep impact on me, in case you din realize~ ;)

Life is continuing as usual now.. and in no time, i'll be back in school, and trying to do my best with the things i'll commit in.. I'll complete the things i have to do..

but i'll be looking forward to the times when i can jus sit and reminisce times.. hahax.. just sit there and think abt the things that happened.. it'll be fun~ ;)

You know.. when my photos are being uploaded, there'll be this thumbnail thingy at the side of it, and while staring at it just now, the 2 weeks flashed by in 5 minutes, and it was strange.. lolx.. could almost remember the exact feeling when taking those photos.. and its really strange.. hahax..

=)

Happy moments are cool~

Came home, unpacked and concussed on the bed instantly.. hahax..
Woke up this morning, and started working since then.. its now 2pm.. and i suppose, i'm almost done with certain things.. (like that darn *****) hahax.. and taking a 30 minute break b4 i go see wad i can do abt the PW thingy.. hahax.. then can start studying le.. then.......

AHHHH.. i look DAMN retarded in pictures.. hahahax..
AND.. the videos are MORE retarded than the photos.. CHAM CHAM CHAM.. upload sure kena niao one.. >.< hahaxx..

kz.. and photobucket is TOTALLY daoing me..

Of all photos, this is the ONE i need to put online.. lolx.. it's my FAVOURITE photo lahz!!!! hahax.. and jaime looks like he's crying.. believe it or not, my heart was bleeding at this photo.. this is the last photo i took with him, and the last few minutes i talked to him... :'(

This one is the ULTIMATE.. take like DAMN lots then get one.. i bet anne's damn amused.. hahax.. yepx.. the BLACKBIRD rocks!!!!!!! =D And we rock!!~~~~ ^.^
Jus realized i nvr take picture of the anchor.. hahax.. if not, sure damn cool one..

My dear student buddy~~ ^.^ Chio rite? hahahaxx~

HAHA.. the ultimate CORNY combo photo~~ ;)

One of my NICEST artsy photo~ ^.^ I HAVE TALENT!!!! hahahax~~

ULTIMATE crime~~~ hahahaxxx... i shud have taken a photo of the police.. then maybe it'll be funnier~ :P But yepx.. we're wrong.. sorry~ >.< hahax~

AHHHHH.. i wanna put everything on!!!!! HMPH!~!!!!!

kz.. too many photos le.. HMMMMMMM... the rest will go on photobucket when i get it to work kz~ =)

Nice Fuzzy Feeling when looking at photos~~ hahaxx.. and turn red in embarrassment at all the videos.. hahahahhahaxx...

Just realized things have changed alot.. About time to start thinking already..

Saw huixun on the table and was stabbed with guilt.. just realized, how much i've disappeared from their lives.. And it seems so surreal, that just a few months ago, they were the centre of my life, and i prioritized them above everything else i have.. And now.. they might have already forgotten who i am.. How ironic things can change.. >.<

Was discussing with the jiemeis on the plane, and realized how similar we were.. hahax.. maybe not.. but some parts are the same.. hahax.. and tracing through the process of the whole event, sometimes, i just cant help realizing how things can change.. and when i myself declare things i didnt realized.. i suppose part of me has already accepted it.. hahax.. sounds confusing.. but yepx.. things HAVE changed..

Yay.. i think i've taken a long enough break..

Avril lavigne's GIRLFRIEND is damn cool!!~~ hahaxx. im looping it.. and it has the F word.. so much for turning shu-nv.. hahahaxx..

I attach the video, but if u cant stand cursing, DONT watch!!!!!! REALLY!! Im not joking.. quite alot of swear words de~~ >.< this is the only version that censors it.. HMM.. but pixelized.. wadeva lahz..

http://youtube.com/watch?v=cQ25-glGRzI

Lyrics Avril Lavigne Lyrics

okay.. i think im bored.. rested for damn long le..

i go do pw.. >.< (I think i'll just go watch tv lahz..)

Tu me manques beaucoup

2007-05-27T18:59:00.000-07:00

YAY!!! HuiQing's over~~ :) Super happy now.. k lahz.. the turnout was not as expected.. seeing that almost ALL the seniors bang-seh me.. but yeahz.. we all had fun.. (Those hu turned up..) And it was cool seeing the seniors all gathering together.. Not forgetting the damn farni hui dance that we did.. ANDDDDD!!! The backdrop is DAMN nice..

NOT forgetting my dearest programme booklets and door gifts.. lolx.. which had alot of leftovers lahx.. but i still think it's a good effort on our part le~~ =)

Special thanks to my gong guan zu!!~~ ^.^ Esp my dearest sinyee!!! lolx.. couldnt have done without u.. and Xin-er, JEFFREY and yicheng for their help with the designs and stuff.. N yufeng (n jeffrey n sinyee too of cos) hu helped with the ultimate clearup.. lolx.. ALOT ALOT of things to say and thank these people.. but dunno lahx.. im not a very fluent person so shall keep it like this.. THANKS alot guys!!~~ ^.^ i really had fun working with you all lohz~~ lolx..

Oh ya.. and not forgetting scandalous photos.. hahahax..

k la k la.. jkjk onli~~

Will be leaving for australia tonight.. 6pm.. which is 8 hours frm now.. and im missing home already.. lolx.. the mere thought of going through the whole "homestay" thingy can kill me.. and now that i think of it.. maybe i should get some form of present for the buddy there.. if not.. haix.. nvm.. no time le.. 8 hours and i wanna use it to prepare for haruki's pressie~~ :) hahahax..

wanted to do many many things for him.. but now that i think of it.. i am really really super duper naive lahx.. ALL sorts of technical errors lah.. please.. like my microphone now abit can work.. pissed diao.. heck.. i'll try my bestest best.. *since i've started preparing since my bdae* lolx.. gan dong dao.... nvm.. hope he likes it lahx.. though its still a noob present..

now 10 plus onli.. hafta to print stuff and sent to haruki by this afternoon.. if not abit noob.. and now send will still reach late lohz.. heckx...

Leeloos tune is still a nice song.. ^.^

AND YAY!!! i finally got my microphone to work~!!! lolx...

Tartar singapore.. i'll cya in 2 weeks.. lolx... (shux.. havent finish packing.. >.<)

The state of my luggage now:

lolx.. dun ask me what i was doing all morning. >.< dying...

Hey~ I know you won't be reading this.. but i just wanna tell you, it's a big regret to not be able to fly to japan and spend your birthday with you.. and somehow, not being able to count down to your birthday with you also makes me feel bad.. lolx.. but even if i flew there.. u'll probably be studying anyway.. lolx.. work hard~~ :P

Guess what? Today is officially 10 months since the night we chat~ lolx.. just realized.. anyway.. hope you enjoy the present i'll be sending to you.. ^.^

I've been looking up at the sky pretty often these few days.. and sometimes its just amazing how we can be under the same sky and not meet for 10 months.. and still miss each other all the same..

Tu me manques beaucoup

=)

An early "Happy Birthday" for you~ Just in case i cant get a computer in australia.. 誕生日おめでとう～

2007-05-19T21:55:00.000-07:00

=)

Finally got the chance to upload my pictures after a LONG LONG time.. kx.. maybe im not THAT busy.. but its jus too tedious for me to go find the cable.. :P

Last sunday was mother's day.. so went to sakura to eat with the whole of my daddy's side of the family..

Then went to eat again during my dad's bdae.. which was on wednesday..

WOAHZ.. feel like a pig now.. hahax..

got to see my cousins during the meal at least. when was the last time i saw them ahz?? HMM.. of course.. we took the chance to take a COUSIN shot.. hahax.. little zihui din get to take lahz.. she was too busy eating her stuff.. so it was the classic 4 gal 1 guy shot.. which is always the case.. >.<

then i randomly shot my littlest cousin chengxun~~ :) Cute!!!

quite fun lahx~~ =D

then fac outing.. suan le.. shant say much..

watched momo.. quite nice!! Er-hem fell asleep tho.. HAIX... DESPISE!!! :P hahahax~~~ eh?! I tot we wanted to go buy pres today?!?!! WTH!! NOw abit got time.. heck lahx.. paiseh.. i think i forgot until jus now.. :( nvm.. i'll go sneak out during breaks.. hahahax..

MAD dance night ytd.. SUPER nice!!! WOAHX... really damn nice lahx.. saw my gor.. hu happily went on stage and acted like a laoda.. i tot he looked quite zhai.. :P watched with jeff, suayu n yh.. super funny.. ended up talking abt chacha, salsa, tango crap.. :P then went on stage to embarrass ruixiong.. crap lahz.. jus play until siao.. but very fun.. hahax.. and the twins and andrew were damn cool!!! hahax.. very zhai.. =)

spent ytd watching yicheng doing up the programme bklt and door gift.. and i swear i want to learn adobe. >.< I suck at it lahz.. then so guilty.. make jeff and yicheng do.. then still sian dong sian xi... haiyahz.. but the results really damn nice!!!

shant put the pix here.. if not that day no surprise le.. hahahax..

but its really DAMN nice!!!

Oh.. btw.. jus to spread the msg arnd.. HuiQing will be on 26th may, saturday, school HALL at 4pm!! Dun be late!! And wear the csoc tee when its out.. i'll go hurry cy~~ :P hahax..

loads of things to do.. and still blogging.. i bet im crazy..
but ive been doing since morning lehz.. >.< very tired le..
GPP due on tuesday.. and now im still not even half done..
the ju ben for bianju ke.. ABIT zhai.. >.<

and not forgetting all the huiqing stuff.. i abit pro at it ahz...

realized i suck.. but heck..

time.. i really need time now.. hahahxx~~

i promise i'll do the gpp by today.. promise.. i'll jus slack a little while more..

heard Maksim's older song Leeloos tune and felt like crying.. hahahahxxxxxx.. its a less famous song.. (compared to bumblebee...) but its a nice song.. cant find it on youtube thoh.. i mite jus upload it some other day..

k lahz.. its lunch time.. i'll come back to do gpp later.. >.<

Goodday.. ^.^

2007-05-17T05:46:00.000-07:00

Sweet~~ =)

Daddy's bdae ytd~!!! hahaz.. happy BIRTHDAY dad!! ^.^ Had lessons so went home onli at 6.. but tried my best to go early le lahz.. he'll understand de~~ =)

Life's boring now..

and we'll live~!!!

Hail Australia~~ Here i come!!!! :P

2007-05-10T06:10:00.000-07:00

*MUAKZ!!!*

hahaz.. i know its a little late now.. but still wanna thank everyone for their amazing surprises~!!!! =)

Special thanks to:

DAD, MOM, PAK, HONEY: hahahaz... have to thank you all first de.. cos even tho u guys celebrate 4 me EVERY year.. i still cant help but feel really warm and cosy on the inside when cutting the cake with you guys~~ (even at 7am in the morning) hahaz..

Baona n yihong: <3 I cant love u guys enough.. seriously.. nth can express wad im feeling.. but you guys SERIOUSLY rox!!!!! =)And thx for the wallet!! I realli like it alot de~~ ;) (Though.. pink... hahax..)

Rachel: =) Tho i din get to meet u.. but i still luv u alot de!! And ur happibdae means ALOT to me!! =) Thankew~~~ :P

Florence, Pengrong, Weilin, Kxiang, Wenrui, Xiaowen: =) Oh manz.. you guys sErIoUsLy super gan dong lahz!! hahaz.. really had alot of fun lohz!! and definitely loved the present!! hahaz.. thanks alot!~~~~ ^.^

s73-ers: For openly singing happi bdae during MATH lecture?? hahahaz~~~ you guys are insane.. but i love it~~ :P:P

Yinghan, Choonyen, Kianyang, Suayu, Yicheng: THANKS for the pressie!! hahaz.. dun blame choonyen le lahz.. i love it alot worz~~ ^.^

HARUKI: =) Thx for spending the last few minutes of the 16th year with me.. and i'll forever rmbr that song.. ^.^ I'm glad you were with me when i turned 17.. it meant everything to me.. ^.^ and im now the same age as you!! At least for the next 20 odd days.. hahaz..

Darwis: ^.^ Thx dear!!! hahaz.. for everything.. and esp for keeping me company till so late kz~~ hahaz.. And i really enjoy chatting with you de worz!!! =) You really rock big time~!!!! Cya arnd soon ya~~ ^.^

Weilai: =) Thx for the wallet~~ hahaz.. abit too big but i still like it alot~~ But boh pian.. sisterhood more impt so i using theirs now.. hahax.. >.< paiseh lahz.. but i'll still keep it carefully de~~ Thx!!

JJ: E cranes are realli nice.. and thanks for everything. =) im still ready for chats anytime de kz!! dun forget to find me when u're troubled kz~~ :P

Doris: AHH!!! You remember!!! hahaz.. thanks alot kz!~~~ :P

Twins gege: (",)
Twins didi: AHH!!! gd job.. jus realized today.. but forgive u ba.. hahaz..

ZhiCheng: For zhuan-men calling frm camp to sing song~~ hahaz..

HongDiFan: WOAHZ.. unexpected.. but thx for ur msg aniwaez~~ =)

HuangPei
Zhenghang
Jinhao
Jiaju n Sengwei (SMS in the LAB???)
Ewe
MinZhe
Damien
TingTing
For All the wonderful SMSes~!!! hahaz.. THANKS alot!!! =)

Woahz.. cant thank all you guys enough!! And of course those who rmbred~~ =) Thanks SO much!! You guys really made my day!~~~ hahaz~~

Bdae cake frm daddy n mommmy.. that we ate in the morning.. hahax..

:) My dearest parents n gor n mei celebrating bdae for me (sis not in picture cos she eating crab.. then super messy <3 but i still love her the same.. hahahaz)

I am SOOOOOO touched by this.. seriously.. hahax.. <3 Thanks alot haruki!! hahax.. i cant thank you enough for all you've done.. =) Now i have to think of a more impressive pressie for u.. hahahax~~ (BOYS! learn from him!! hahaz..)

lolx.. enuf of this le lahz.. its over la.. and jiaju had his bdae ytd too~~ hahax.. so we're all now in this joyous mood lohz~~ =)

ONE FINAL>> THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!! ^.^

OK.. enuf le~~ =)

today's chem screwed up BIG TIME.. a level summore.. haix.. (hu the hell in the right mind will cancel the right answer and write a COMPLETELY wrong one??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!! other than the retarded me.........) ben lai very sad one.. but ive decided to just get on with life lahz.. its too small a deal to cry over.. :P SUAN LE!!! Jus let me hate myself for a little while more and i'll be fine~~ >.< (Y*#^%(*#%(*@#&64(!*@&#*&@^!896) I hate myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Went to lep rm after screwing chem with the intention to emo there and die off.. then ended up helping the try outs for the games for huiqing.. hahax.. super zhai.. i've decided i'll be VERY busy with reception table on that day *whistles* hahax~~~ Then ben lai wanted to help yicheng with the banner de.. then ended up not doing much purely becos i suck at art.. >.< (What am i good at ahz???) Nvm..

Then found sth im slightly better at.. ENTERTAINING pp hu are cleansing tapes.. hahax.. seriously.. black tapes are not exactly very in nowadays.. :P n watching them spin is a chore.. hahax.. so i went to entertain those guys with the most unique method.. hahahax... ;) *SHHHH* cannot say.. later tio caught.. hahahax~~~

Ended up coming home and attituding everyone.. >.< HAIx.. so much for loving family.. heck lahx..

time to move with life.. one exam cant kill me de!! I WILL TRIUMPH!!!!

AHHHH...

Im damn pissed..

HECK!!

Went to read class blog and felt a little better.. laughed at the scandals of cos.. :P hahahx.. k lahz..

Actually im not THAT upset.. jus very gekk onli.. u know that feeling? it's like you struck lottery worth a thousand million dollars and realized you JUST washed the ticket in the washing machine.. then while you stare at the pants go up and down and swirling in the washing machine, you want to die.. you just want to die that instant..

Some pp cant take it and die.

Some pp cry, make a big fuss of it.. then calm down and realize that.. it isnt THAT big a matter.. you'll just move on in life.. then you'll make enough money to make up for that one thousand million dollars.. maybe you have to work extra hard, and be extra careful next time.. but you'll still eventually have a thousand million dollars in your pocket..

and that is what i'm going to do. I'm going to work doubly hard for a levels and not screw up any other SPAs or exams or any other single thing..

then i can make up for the silly mistake i made in a silly situation..

and ten years from now, when i look back, i'll blush myself red and laugh at myself for the stupidity i displayed.. at crying over results..

Maybe it wasnt for the results. Maybe it was just the sense of loss.. and maybe it was simply my own ego not willing to accept the fact that i could not manage a simple question..

Or maybe it was simply the disappointment in myself.. that i seem to fail in everything i do.

To lose something that you had.. is worse than not having it at all in the first place.

Suan le..

One simple SPA can set me thinking like this..

Maybe it'll help me study a little harder from now on.

I'm NOT going to screw my bio SPA on monday. =) I promise.

WOAHZ.. thats optimistic.. hahax..

shall jia you and work harder lohz~~

now go read comics first.. i'll start tomorrow. :P

2007-05-05T21:18:00.000-07:00

YAY!!!!

E juniors seriously ROCKS lahz!!!! =D Congratulations pp on winning e comp!~~ ^.^ It's seriously a very good job done.. and i'm soooo proud of you guys!!~~~~ lolx..
I din do much.. but i was seriously very happy when i saw you guys cheering away~!! (Tho.. y shan ge?? :P) haha~~

ACJC exam showcase for J2 theatrestudies pp.. super cool.. really!! It's like.. *woahz*.. especially liked the samurai one.. Rashomon (1950). Went to search and found this pic:

I realli like akira kurosawa ALOT.. maybe will go find his shows to watch soon lahz.. haha~~ But honestly.. it was a good job done~!! *applause* Tho it was really very late le.. but i still enjoyed it.. quite alot~ ;) And an applause to BOX, cause it was an original script.. and it was really quite not bad~

Very happy.. bio and chem test over le.. seriously.. im just so so so relieved its over.. if not ahz.. i will die de.. now at least can go solve those probs with huiqing.. ^.^ Im not exactly very pro.. so need a longer time than other pp to learn how to do stuff.. so let's JIA YOU!!! Huiqing will be fine de!!!

AND i'm going australia on the 28th!! ^.^ 2 days after huiqing worz!!! SUPER COOL!!! I like this kind of finish one thing then immediately got another thing to do kinda feel.. :P:P *sadist*

Oh manz.. Frasar coast seriously looks more and more like a very good vacation spot~~ ^.^ And got marine life observation~~ Kz.. i wasn't very pleased when i knew i wasnt going UK.. but now.. im just glad to go overseas lahz~~ hahaha~~ And i'll enjoy myself there de!!! ^.^ Go play with sea animalz.. :P

Blocks coming 2 weeks after i come back frm aus.. which means.. im so freakin' screwed.. :P But heck lahz.. can study de.. ^.^ Jus mug hard jiu OKAY de!!! ^.^

Life's now filled with amazing stuff.. Filled with LOADS of theatre.. haha~~ Neglecting studies abit now.. cause no pnt studying when there's no test right?? :P:P (SUCCESSFUL exam system) But PW's a big head ache lahz.. :P Pity my dear lil sister.. she has mid-yr exams till next thurs lahz.. super cham.. >.<

Talking abt PW.. AH!! $60++ dollars for a subject that i dun care abt?? lolx.. super fei.. and honestly lahz.. it's damn subjective. .they dun like my proj then how?? Saddening..

HECK lahz.. haha~~

I just had a full 9 hour sleep.. Reached home at abt 12.. then sleep until 9am.. quite nice lahz.. ^.^ At least i woke up on my own accord.. :P But now.. waking up isnt' THAT big a problem le.. at least i sleep enuf.. haha~~

Life now quite slack.. ^.^ eat, sleep, play.. And thinking of wad to give haruki for pressie.. (His bdae 30th may.. AND im in aus le!! >.< HMM...)Then thinking abt huiqing.. abt attachments.. haiz.. dunno lahz.. quite okay le.. :) Then watch shows every friday.. nice nice.. =)

Still wanna watch phantom.. and still no money.. haha~~ Got pp subsidize me then i go~~ :P lolx.. (Bu Yao Lianz!!!) haha~~~~

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OKay.. i quite recommend this show.. trying to get FOH jobs so we can watch for free.. :P And also just learn how to do FOH jobs of cos (learning experience)!!

RuiXiong's right.. i must be selective abt the attachments.. cannot let you all do saigang.. >.< Hmm.. Learn frm error and move forward!!!! *CHARGE!!!*

haha~~ Lame.. but ya lah.. i learn le.. thx alot senior!!~! ^.^ (But i still think my noticeboard quite nice lehz~~ :P haha~~ i go see how to improve kz!~) SO pp.. go suggestions just tag.. ^.^ (Despo for pp to tag.. :P:P)

k lahz.. my post damn long lahz.. hahaha~~~

Shan't lame le.. ^.^

!!!

Last day of my 16th year today!!! OMG!! okay okay.. Hmm.. k.. let's think..

i wanna thank my father and mother.. my brother and sister.. my fwens.. my relatives.. my ah-ma.. my ah-gong.. my..

k la.. STUPID!! :P

But ya lahz.. last day le worz.. after today, i wont be considered under-age teen le.. :P Not protected by law.. ji sad.. haha~~

17 year old.. its the prime time of our lives ehz!!! It's when all the wonderful love stories happen~~ *dazed look* hahaha~~

17 reminds me of those kind of super duper sweet sweet happy, mini skirt, knee length socks, orchard road kinda thing.. hahaz~~ Too anime le.. but still.. it's that kinda thing..

HAHAHAHHAHA...

17 can also be the tight jeans, sunglasses, denim shoes, ipod, ear studs, funky necklace, cool poses age.. haha~~

17.. HMM... haha~~ exciting age.. :P Looking forward to the next year of my life.. Shall start attempting 17 yr old dressing le.. (*bleargh*)

YEAHZ!!!

Im gonna be 17!!! One year older le!!!

happy, shalalala~~
it's so nice to be happy, shalalala~~
everybody should be happy, shalalala~~

偶然看见这么一段文字出现在我以前的blog entry里，发现还蛮适合我想表达的心情：

眼泪虽然停止了一段时间，但不知觉的，又开始流了下来。
好像几十年未开过的水龙头一样。
突然间流了好多好多。到现在还在流。还是不会停。
但是，却得在别人面前装开心。
为什么我总是要那么坚强？
为什么我是现在的我？
温柔一点，人家说我变女性化了。
我本来就是女的，只是动作言语粗鲁了点。
难道这就代表我不能够脆弱吗？
我也是人。一个用骨头，肉，血液制造出来的人。
难道我连伤心、哭泣、依赖的权利都没有吗？
为什么我每次都是那个安慰人的人？
为什么我每次都要陪人家呆在厕所里面，听他们的哭泣，让他们依赖？
从来没有人会为我而这样。可能是因为我从来不向别人诉苦。
是因为没有人给过我这种信任他们的安全感。

2007-04-26T04:43:00.000-07:00

Haruki emailed me~!!! :D super happy now~ haha~~ im smiling like a retard now.. but i dun care~ :) ^.^ =D ;D =)

today's meeting with huiqing chouwei was o--kay lahz~~ guess the "cowboy" idea jus showed how good the four seasons idea is~~ hahaha~~~ nvm nvm.. it's still a good attempt~ and it'll be good de!!! ^.^ let's jia you pp!!!!!!!! =D

today was another long csc day.. but somehow, it just passed~ the fact that im going to australia jus settled in le.. and frazar coast seriously looks quite okay~ :D and i dun care le lahz.. jus take things easy.. it'll all jus work out de~~~~~~ ^.^

have been feeling very cold today.. the weird weather is getting on my nerves. its either bbq-ed hot or super duper cold.. haha~~~

went to listen to some of the older songs in my file.. and fell in love with this jap song.. sent by haruki of cos~ ^.^ I swear i dunno wad the whole song means.. but i understand most of it~

「車輪の唄」　by Bump Of Chicken　作詞・作曲藤原　基央

錆び付いた車輪　悲鳴を上げ
僕等の体を運んでいく　明け方の駅へと

ペダルを漕ぐ僕の背中
寄りかかる君から伝わるもの　確かな温もり

線路沿いの上り坂で
「もうちょっと、あと少し」後ろから楽しそうな声

町はとても静か過ぎて
「世界中に二人だけみたいだね」と小さくこぼした

同時に言葉を失くした　坂を上りきった時
迎えてくれた朝焼けが　あまりに綺麗過ぎて

笑っただろう　あの時　僕の後ろ側で
振り返る事が出来なかった　僕は泣いてたから

券売機で一番端の
一番高い切符が行く町を　僕はよく知らない

その中でも一番安い
入場券を　すぐに使うのに　大事にしまった

おととい買った　大きな鞄
改札に引っ掛けて通れずに　君は僕を見た

目は合わせないで頷いて
頑なに引っ掛かる　鞄の紐を　僕の手が外した

響くベルが最後を告げる　君だけのドアが開く
何万歩より距離のある一歩　踏み出して君は言う

「約束だよ　必ず　いつの日かまた会おう」
応えられず　俯いたまま　僕は手を振ったよ

間違いじゃない　あの時　君は…

線路沿いの下り坂を
風よりも早く飛ばしていく　君に追いつけと
錆び付いた車輪　悲鳴を上げ
精一杯電車と並ぶけれど
ゆっくり離されてく

泣いてただろう　あの時　ドアの向こう側で
顔見なくてもわかってたよ　声が震えてたから

約束だよ　必ず　いつの日かまた会おう
離れていく　君に見えるように　大きく手を振ったよ

町は賑わいだしたけれど
世界中に一人だけみたいだなぁ　と小さくこぼした

錆び付いた車輪　悲鳴を上げ
残された僕を運んでいく
微かな温もり

I personally interpret this sentence: 約束だよ　必ず　いつの日かまた会おう as It's a promise, definitely, that we will meet again some day~ :)

haha~~ whether this is an accurate translation or not.. i dunno lahz.. but if its what i interpret it as, then it's a very very nice sentence~ ^.^

School's starting to appear redundant in my opinion. haha~~ so much for learning to learn. im learning how to NOT learn. :P Sometimes its hard to define what i like, and i what i need to know. The major problem now is.. i dont even know what i like and want.. so there's no right for me to criticize the system that jus chucks me with what i am supposed to know.. hahaha~~ amazing..

Hell.. i'll still have to take the testS.. so just study ba.. ^.^

Life is depressing.. but well.. i just have to learn to takkit ya? ^.^ haha~~ JIA YOU!!!

The worst thing in life is not to fail in what you do, but to give up without trying~ =D

2007-04-25T00:48:00.000-07:00

Trailer: High School Musical

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a clip that made me all fuzzy inside~~ =)
nicey~ ^.^

2007-04-24T05:53:00.000-07:00

真的不知道自己在做什么了。

但是我这样的生活，我还蛮满意的。=)

是没有什么可以埋怨的了，什么都有的生活，我很开心了。

Went for Nafa 5 stations today.. broke all my personal records.. hahaha~~~ but as quoted from jw "the no. of inclined u did was lesser than the no. of pull ups each guy did..."

haha~~ so much for ego~ :P But i still did more than i ever did in my entire nafa history.. which is....... 7!!!! :D haha~~ And the rest of the gals did like 20?!!!!!!!!! so heck >.<

But still.. im very happy with the results~　^.^ Very easy to satisfy myself for physical de.. jus glad not to fail.. hahaha~~ But today's weather SERIOUSLY very suitable for 2.4 ehz.. too bad cant.. hheck lahz~ i shuang jiu haoz~ ;)

Just attempted to finish my dearest liangyong's CSC hw.. and finally vomitted out a whole page of rubbish.. HECK LA!!! like he cares.. >.<

Went for comm serve today.. now officially the mcyc comm serve secretary/treasurer.. aka darren's sai-gang warrior no.1. haha~~ quite farni.. its jus to help a j2 relieve himself of some work.. but i'll do lahz.. it's quite a fun job aniwaez~ ;)

k ba.. i go sleep le.. now 9++ le worz.. :P:P

oyasuminasai~~ ^.^

Current Mood: ^.^

2007-04-17T05:44:00.000-07:00

终于还是受不了，换了。总觉得这个看起来比较干净。比起之前那个，真的好太多了。真不知道那时候的我是怎么想的。

发现我每次换，里面的内容就是copy and paste.一点点都不会换。很遗憾的，每次在tagboard看到的那些links,总是会忘记，也懒得查，最终，就不告而终。奇怪。真的一点都不会想要改变耶。

今天在池桢老师的课，我依旧没有听。我跟wl借了一本书，看了让我头很痛。哈哈~~不是书的错。那本书叫"The Time Machine" or sth liddat.. its by penguin books or sth..

看了前面5面左右，我就知道，这种书不可能在听池老师的同时读的。

就算我什么都没有记得，我还是蛮喜欢这本书的。

书里面提到一些东西，大概是这样：People always talk about 3 dimensions, length, breadth, depth. Now, people are talking about 4 dimensions, length, breadth, depth and time. If we can alter length, breadth and depth, why can't we alter time?

虽然我不是很懂，但是，我知道，这是在说“时间”。

人在一瞬间做的事情，总是会留下痕迹的。而这种痕迹，是怎么样也改变不了的。

人会后悔，会想“如果”。

但是又怎样？

什么都改变不了了。既然这样，后悔有什么用？

认命，未必是件坏事。最起码，大家都活得快乐一些。

最近开始觉得自己越来越笨了。以前犯的错误，到今天都没有办法学乖。就算当下告诉自己“如果以后再做这种事情，就是小猪”，但是现在，还是笨到去犯同样的错。

当自己发现自己是多么无能的时候，对自己是多么大的打击。。
我真的开始觉得自己很没有用了。
怎么最近做的都是artsy的东西啊？
我不是理科学生吗？

哈哈~~真是奇妙。

我相信我很开心。
I think, therefore i am. (haha..)

うれしいような、寂しいような・・・

Crap Post

2007-04-13T18:20:00.000-07:00

I have a desperate desire to change the blog template.. but i seriously find the pillow very cute.. lolx~~ Wishix.com is quite a nice site.. can go see if u interested.. lolx..

Supposed to be memorizing the CeiSCei notes today.. but gave up after one hour of pointless struggle. Woke up at 6++ this morning.. simply couldnt sleep.. then went on to mope around at home.. lolx~~

Im enjoying my life now~~~~~~~ ^.^ yay~!!!!!

k laz. crap. now 945, test in less than 3 hrs time.. i'll go study.. lolx~~

provided i dun end up watching tv~~ HAHAHA~~

Oh ya.. btw.. Happy belated international friendship day!! :D

P.S. S73 is a damn farni class.. :P